Sunday, September 18, 2011 - [wasted my time.]
Idk if y'all can read it it says
Have you (ever) come to the stage where you are afraid to be close
or to get close to some one for the fear (to go through the phase)
that they may leave you like how those previous one(s) did?
I saw my friend post this and I thought about you immediately.. and plus seeing some people's tweets and your FB updates, suddenly made me very mad . I was in very good spirits the whole day actually, but I thought about you and I seriously wanna slap your face so hard.
But nevermind I'm gonna rant awhile, when I'm done, I shall resume my happy thoughts.
ANYWAY. it reminds me what a fucking asshole you are. and kinda pathetic as well. When we were still talking and kinda close in fact, and you whined about all your ex-es and how they treated you badly and stuff. It seems like you're just as bad to me, supposedly "rejecting" girls around you like you're some kinda god and everyone likes you. oh please.
Okay fine, I know you can be nice and all, like you were to me until you suddenly changed, like why the f did you become like this I have no effing idea and I've thought pretty long about it and I can only conclude you're an arrogant bastard.
But good for you, at least I know one person who will defend you upon reading this, but even that person will probably give up on you soon.
I hate you now because you lied to me. You promised me things you wouldn't do and you do it right in front of my face and smile like an idiot . fuck you seriously, I don't care how miserable your life was, I'm not gonna console you ever again. Because I did and you took it for granted and you just disappeared suddenly when I needed you around.
Remember that night infront of my house and you actually put your fucking arms around me and hugged me because I was so troubled and you said "you'll never leave me alone if I had problems, you never want us to fall apart even if you found a girlfriend or found a job and became busy" AND of course how can I forget you telling me "Don't fall in love with me okay? I wanna be best friends with you."
fuck you and your bullshit. _I_
Anyway I also am angry at you because you set so many goals for yourself and didn't even put in the effort and thus you failed at almost everything you told me you would do. job well dumb.
I'm not gonna waste anymore time and effort typing about you, you're just a super short chapter in my life that has pretty much taught me that I should trust my first impression. I didn't like you in the beginning, and congratulations I still don't like you.
yeah apparently now you're doing fine and you're happy with other people. Good luck to you, hope you don't screw up again, because unlike you I'm human and I have a heart and I genuinely hope that you can open your fucking eyes and realize who cares about you. But let me tell you now, I DON'T ANYMORE. Because to me you're a piece of shit, I trusted you. When everyone was mocking you I put all my belief in you that you could achieve your dream. TOO BAD. I'm just gonna sit and watch you struggle and see if you EVER accomplish what you wanted.
what we could have done..
1:30 AM.
