Tuesday, November 15, 2011 - [day five.]
"I told you not to do that, you're such an asshole"
"for fun lah, to stir shit for you"
Today is my 4th day back in Singapore.
If feels like nothing has been going right,
2 out of 4 days have ended in tears.
3 out of 4 days I've had a persistent tummy upset.
4 out of 4 days I have met my best friend and tried to be normal again, but it didn't last.
4 out of 4 days I've tried to listen to funk music but my heart doesn't skip and my feet don't twitch.
0 out of 4 days I have stayed home or slept properly.
what will day 5 be like?
I wonder why I was even looking forward to coming home. Instead of being excited to re-attend classes, to continue skating, to learn to cook more food, to see all my friends, I feel like everything is a chore, I want to go away again.
3 out of 4 days I've had a persistent tummy upset.
4 out of 4 days I have met my best friend and tried to be normal again, but it didn't last.
4 out of 4 days I've tried to listen to funk music but my heart doesn't skip and my feet don't twitch.
0 out of 4 days I have stayed home or slept properly.
what will day 5 be like?
You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah
I wonder why I was even looking forward to coming home. Instead of being excited to re-attend classes, to continue skating, to learn to cook more food, to see all my friends, I feel like everything is a chore, I want to go away again.
Cheer up and dry your damp eyes
and tell me when it rains
And I'll blend up that rainbow above you
and shoot it through your veins
what we could have done..
8:14 PM.
