you'll never know the real me.

CNY 2012

2012-01-26T21:32:00.006+08:00

This year, 2012, I had the most enjoyable Chinese New Year ever. After many years of eating out at some fast food place with only my mom and brother, I had a home to go to.

Instead of having my angpow money banked in by my mom, I had the joy of collecting them myself. This post shall not be too highly descriptive because it was actually a very emotional occasion and I was upset on the three consecutive days.

I shall not forget how I spent my CNY not with my family but with my possibly future family, the Tans [: It doesn’t matter that me and my stubborn boyfriend arrived late for reunion dinner, because we did eat a lovely steamboat at home and his family did eventually come home and it was a happy household.

I forgive my most silly boyfriend for intentionally annoying me on CNY eve, he got his retribution – golden hair. HAHA, of course that made me stay up the whole night, running around searching for dye and begging Ivan for help, to save his destroyed hair.

It doesn’t matter that the rain ruined our plans to go visiting and we ended up going only to one relative’s place where every single dish contained pork. It also doesn’t matter I got punched in the face with my spectacles poking my eyes and giving me a bruise on my nose and naughty yaoyi smashing my spectacles on the floor. I nearly caught a flu running in the rain with Chris but the day was worth it because he won $476 from Blackjack :p

Although I missed the chance to play mahjong against Chris, his papa and da jie, I did force meow to bao my very first da san yuan, which was like the ‘most-awesome-moment-in-my-mahjong-life’.

Even though Chris blatantly lied to me about being on his way home and I had to managed 4 extremely playful kids trying to pluck buttons of Chris’s laptop and destroy the Monopoly electronic calculator and climb to the top bunk without the ladder and transform the bedroom into a ball-pit. It was a fun time, but I got tired.. and it was time for more Blackjack and steamboat teeeheeee.

I was hurt physically, I was left alone, I was caught in the rain, I had a tummy upset, I didn’t sleep for two nights, but it was all worth it because I felt love the proper way a family should have.

Oh yes, how could I forget, even the pre-CNY period was awesome, the days of shopping with Dengyin and Dinnie and my mom were very fulfilling, despite the shocking $86 bill for all my alteration. The last minute shopping with Chris was highly entertaining and satisfying for both of us, because finally I can see my sweetheart in better clothes and he was overflowing with joy from his ‘haul’ in 2hours.

what a day.

2012-01-14T00:05:00.003+08:00

Today my father raged at me for going out late almost every night, claiming that he had been monitoring my activities. He said he regretted taking custody of me and would have lived happily with just my brother. He also said he refuses to give me allowance when I go overseas and I have to work for myself. He accused me of demanding ransom of 60k a year for education. He actually said he didn't raise me to be a prostitute.

My only rebuttal that rendered him speechless: When you die and meet god, you can ask him personally if I've really done anything wrong or sinful.

Today I spent the day with my mom, cute mom, but naggy mom, as usual, but she's usually entertaining when she's not preaching about buddhism or bitching about dad. Today we went on a pretty long quest to look for a nice bag, and found.. zilch. Bought other stuff though like sleepwear and tees for bro [:

Today I entered the 'holy' Abercrombie and Fitch store at Knightsbridge, like wow, the whole place is so dark and full of mirrors and spotlights, it's really bad because I seriously keep looking at the floor in case I trip or walk in a wall somewhere. I nearly knocked over a stand (you know the metal stand that keeps people in queue with a strap thing) 'cause it was all black -.- There are plants in that shop, strangely positioned infront of shelves, which are already so dimly lit it's hard to look at the apparel. And there's the overwhelming cologne in all three levels and loud booming music which is awful because I lost my mom and I couldnt yell to her because .. there's so many people, it's dark, it's noisy, there's plants and mirrors and .. sighs.. I don't know what they're trying to do there.

The only upside, in my opinion, is the hot models, all the staff are really fit and handsome, and I got a free polaroid with the model of the day. yay. Sexy dude pulled me so close to him and put my arm around him and asked "Why're you so shy?" my lord... who wouldn't be!

Today, after a really long shopping day and mentall exhausting too, mom talks nonstop, I still had to go for my final Party&Soul Locking class. Cyphered without much thought, I'm not sure why, but I didn't feel nervous today nor did I feel nervous the previous two weeks. [: Took polaroids with my coursemates!

I came home to a very rude shock. My room has yet again been rearranged, seriously rearranged, who the hell puts books inside a clothes cupboard?! The most irritating discovery is that my dad has removed the Mahjong table.

where.the.fuck.did.you.put.it.

I swear if I don't get an answer, I'm going to start removing things from the living room and his bedroom and I won't even hide the stuff at home, I'll just bring them out and leave them at Casi and see how he begs me to return his stuff.

pain.

2011-12-21T12:28:00.006+08:00

It's been such an emotional morning.. I'm not sure where I should begin this brutally honest post..

My two sources of grief began quite long ago. 3 years ago a prediction was made in Taiwan by a palm reader that I would contract a liver disease. In April this year, my family doctor told me my neck was swelling. Roughly two weeks ago I had lunch with dengyin and her mom, and her mom told me to get myself checked. Just in time, I had to go for a medical examination before going to Australia. The doctor at the hospital was not authorized to conduct extra tests for me unless I set my own appointment unrelated to the visa. She did mention the swelling was prominent and asked, "So after your friend's mom said that, did you check your liver?"

On Saturday, the 17th, while I was on my way to visit my beloved religious teacher and caretaker for about 5 years, she passed away. She had been diagnosed with Brain, Backbone, Stomach, Pancreas and Chest Cancer, just two months ago and it was already at a terminal stage.

I looked at her pale and cold and extremely thin body and thought how perverse this was, that such a noble person would suffer such ill fate. It really upset me that god allowed this to befall her. If someone who has done so much good ends up this way, I, who have sinned incredibly will be .. run over multiple times? buried alive? fall from a burning building? be stabbed and beaten up into a vegetable? I was shaken by my first experience with a dead body.

I had a simple but fruitful day after that with dengyin and glenn who came afterwards. Even though we just walked and talked and glenn as usual made fun of me, it was alright, they took my mind off things.. and also because I saw something that I found very appropriate for Chris in more ways than one, and I felt so happy I found a nice gift for Christmas. I had a wonderful evening with Chris afterwards, even though I was extremely tired I was dragged back out by the overly excited boy to watch Sherlock Holmes: A Game of Shadows.

Back at Casi, while I was happily chatting to whoever.. when I took a step backwards and knocked over three glasses which I watched in slow-motion (I know this sounds drama but it really appeared to be in slow-motion) as the three glasses toppled over and shatter at my feet. Glass shards flew every where and I just stood frozen and saw a pool of red gather around my left toes. I think it might be because I was too exhausted from a previous sleepless night I couldn't think or register anything that just happened.

The ground being carpeted silenced the clink of glass shattering, but Chris saw what happened from outside and rushed in and yelled at me for being clumsy and I was still too shaken to reply.. until he noticed the pool of blood he picked me up and Alvin reacted just as swiftly with his brooms and vaccuum cleaner and a box of band-aids.

After being carried away from the glass remains, amazingly only one glass shattered, the other two survived the fall. My toes were nicely wrapped in plasters and I went to sleep. When I woke up I had a splitting headache and a running nose.

Sunday went by in a blur, all I remember now was Chris desperately calling for Alvin and resorting to going to his home to call him out because he wanted to bring me to the doctor and Alvin had left me in charge of the counter for a temporary period. Poor Alvin, I think he got an earful that night. Since it was past 10pm, I decided to return home and visit the doctor in the morning.

I felt the fever coming on and I thought since he's free.. I asked for Chris to accompany me through the night. He agreed. While he stopped to buy food home, he left his phone in the car and I suddenly remembered there were times when my phone would be oddly quiet and sometimes he never returned my messages. So I took his to open our conversation history to check if he received and replied messages to and from my faulty phone.

I should have known better than to look.. while scrolling for my name I saw other names and conversations that should not have taken place. It was quite disbelieving because he always whined about me not being there enough, and on three occasions had to call dengyin to pry me away from her, and he introduced me to every single person we ever came across and he took me to see his family many times and included me during family occasions and he tried to sneak me into his office sometimes too, risking his employment.

He returned to the car looking cheerful and I looked dead-er than before, because I didn't know what to do next.. while he started up the engine I quietly said, "You don't have to accompany me anymore, if you're busy you can go back," because he was preparing for a meeting the next day when he realized Alvin was gone for way too long.

Sunday night was a terribly restless night, maybe it was my psychological torment, or maybe it was just the fever and cold and cough that developed overnight. I barely slept a wink because it was way too uncomfortable. Chris was like an angel, folding my blanket countless times and patting me to sleep practically the whole night. At any slight twitch he would immediately look up from what he was doing and check on me.

On Monday he skipped work to watch me sleep again or at least try to. In the morning I left for the doctor and poured out all my problems regarding the fever cold cough neck-swelling potential-liver-problem as well as my abnormal amount of peeing.

I went back to sleep this time more successful because my medication were all drowsy.

When I was awake again, I remember feeling very hungry and energetic like everything was cured. I even had the audacity to suggest going for steamboat due to a random craving and he looked sadly at me saying he didn't have the time or mood after his meeting but obliged anyway. As we strolled to a taxi-stand after the steamboat, he tried to speak, stuttered and then smiled and said "I've never loved anyone so much before in my life, besides my ex-wife."

Tuesday I must have slept the whole day again, because I only remember the night time where he was teaching me strategies in League of Legends and then we were going over to his place to retire for the night. (what the hell? sleep again? that's how sick people waste their lives away) I think I must have slept too much because I was unable to sleep last night. I was thinking about my ultrasound this morning and also .. still pondering about what I saw ..

A check while he was asleep showed that nothing new occurred and it's probably due to my sickness, which puzzles me, because the last time I fell sick, which is barely a month ago, I was completely bedridden and though I pleaded him to come he didn't.

This morning, he surprisingly woke up after just 3hours of sleep and dashed off excitedly to work, while I slowly made my way for the dreaded ultrasound. I had to return to Serangoon for a urine test first. I started to feel scared because my doctor labeled my bottle for a urine test with Diabetes and as I made my way to the X-ray clinic I tripped down an escalator and immediately I crumbled.

I completely went numb with pain, pain from the glass cuts on my left toes, the sudden sprain on my left foot, the heartache from seeing the messages, the additional confusion from his confession and recently wonderful behaviour and the fear of being crippled by illnesses.

I couldn't even cry properly, I was in the train station, trying to read the map to see where to go, while choking on my own tears and I was so .. frustrated and tired and .. really just traumatized by whatever events happened since my teacher's death, not forgetting the fact that my parents were away and I couldn't consult my dad for advice. I was terrified of the prospects of being stuck under quarantine, because the kind doctor at the hospital said she would let me pass my examination and ignore my swelling otherwise my visa would not be granted.

I eventually forced myself to stop crying at the clinic. The ultrasound was painful as well, probably because I was made to lie in a posture that made all the blood rush to my head and my legs lost their feelings and the probe was pressing against my sore throat and the doctor obviously had no clue I was struggling not to cough as she twisted the probe repeatedly without lifting to let me relax for a moment.

I heard the doctor say "This is very difficult..." and her voice trailed off, as I left the clinic, I started crying again, even worse than before, thank god I was on an empty bus. I called Chris because I wanted to hear his voice, as it soothed me over the past few nights. For once, he sounded so happy to be at work, and his joyousness was mixed with concern as he asked how I fell and promised to attend to me as soon as work ended. I wanted to speak, I wanted to ask about the messages, but I feared it would become an ugly disaster and I didn't want to ask over the phone. I couldn't utter a word, I think I just made weird noises as my throat was hurting like hell, I was trembling and trying to breathe through all the tears mucus and a partially blocked nose. He hung up after he said he loved me. I continued to weep my way home.. and as if on cue, when I alighted and walked towards home, it began to rain.

day five.

2011-11-15T20:14:00.008+08:00

"I told you not to do that, you're such an asshole"

"for fun lah, to stir shit for you"

Today is my 4th day back in Singapore.

If feels like nothing has been going right,

2 out of 4 days have ended in tears.
3 out of 4 days I've had a persistent tummy upset.
4 out of 4 days I have met my best friend and tried to be normal again, but it didn't last.
4 out of 4 days I've tried to listen to funk music but my heart doesn't skip and my feet don't twitch.
0 out of 4 days I have stayed home or slept properly.

what will day 5 be like?

You can count on me like one, two, three

I'll be there and I know when I need it

I can count on you like four, three, two

And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends

Are supposed to do, oh yeah

I wonder why I was even looking forward to coming home. Instead of being excited to re-attend classes, to continue skating, to learn to cook more food, to see all my friends, I feel like everything is a chore, I want to go away again.

Cheer up and dry your damp eyes

and tell me when it rains

And I'll blend up that rainbow above you

and shoot it through your veins

touched by a miracle

2011-10-28T00:11:00.002+08:00

Today I went to visit my sweetheart at his workplace, after my work ended. bleah, I should stop being a jelly hmm.. Anyway so I went ~ and we had lunch together along with Jiivesh HAHA, what a cool and hard to pronounce name, doesn't even sound Philipino but oh well.

So as expected, it started to rain, like a freak storm, raining extremely heavily and I was like

tmd -.- should have just gone home, would have saved alot of time too

So we were stuck.. but being ever-sociable, he frowned at the rain abit and the ChickenRice stall uncle took out an umbrella and lent it to him. :o just like that. I asked him to send Jiivesh back to the office then walk me to the station.

While they were gone, I was kinda upset 'cause I really really didn't wanna get drenched and my shoes would be soggy within a few steps.. I silently prayed for the rain to stop or get lighter for awhile, so I could walk to the station dry and then the rain could continue pouring all it wanted.

After about 4minutes.. the rain really became lighter and when I saw my baby coming back from office the rain almost stopped.. I was soooo relieved. I don't know how to put it in words really, I was touched by the miracle I swear I was tearing as I walked back.

Plus it was really funny because he was ALL soaked and shivering and the Sun came out just when I stepped out from under the shelter. Ohmymymy, I've never experienced anything like this before.

Everybody should seriously believe in God.

family!

2011-10-25T00:19:00.005+08:00

I kept my promise over the weekend [:

spent all the time I had awake with my family, with the minor exception on Saturday, (while my family was napping) where I had to go down to USS to sign contract :pp OHYEAHHHH !!!

but after that went back to join them, we went shopping together, wahahaha, I love shopping with my family, 'cause they love to walk into almost every shop, touch everything and try on stuff, and just be silly, and they'll buy things generously alsooo~

Over the weekend, also made an effort to talk to Haslinda more, and we cooked together, on Saturday was HokkienMee :DD yumyumyum ! On Sunday was fishcurry + sambal kangkong (there were 4 different types of chilli added in, so fucking spicy none of us could take it ROFL, gave it to the neighbour to help us finish who found it astonishingly deeeelicious) + oyster omelette (haha too mafan to find oysters actually, became normal omelette :xxx)

Thenn~ we also watched movies at home together wheeeee~

Anyway because of certain circumstances, I have to learn to love a few strangers now, and it's kinda difficult, so I had a second family dinner tonight. It was like.. stepmother and halfsister all over again. Thankfully they made it easy for me, and they even specially catered to my needs by NOT ordering pork at all, and asked for my favourite food. awww. *super touched*

I hope everything works out fine~

Life seems nice now ^-^ except that STILL NO PAY FROM SKATING T_T . pooooor maxxxxx. but going to start new locking course soon wheeeee~ and and mahjong night + steamboat night + halloween night to look forward to~

and.. of course probably my last trip to India, to visit granny and all the aunts, uncles, cuzzins and whoever, for 10 whole days.. GG.com. lol that sounds so bad, bleahhh I just hope my time there flies by, and hopefully DJ will be there and Asif will be there too to help me pass my dreary days.

steelseries Siberia V2 Black&Gold

2011-10-14T19:39:00.003+08:00

WOOOOHOOOOOO I think Black&Gold is my current favourite colour combo :DDD it's sooooo sexy, haha and probably partly from the song "Black and Gold" soooo awesome! ^-^ To accompany my lovely Black&Gold gshock, now I finally....... have something geeky about me :p

like homaigawd?! since when did I game right? :xx Tetris? LOL

Okayokay I know, many people gonna say it's a waste because I'm not a gamer but it was seriously tooooooo eff-ing chio and comfortable and I was daydreaming about it and .. [: my dearest was super efficient and found me a limited edition Black&Gold edition. omgomgomg it's like the first pair in Singapore. omgwtfbbq! :DDD *happy max*

you know what! It's soooo exclusive I couldn't find a picture of it on Google D:
so nevermind just took some random pictures of similar versions :pp

AHHHHH !

yuppp I tried the full-black one in Garena Office and I was like... love at first sight + touch + sound.

IM SO HAPPY !!! :DDD shall take picture of the chio headset and show ya'll soon :D

MLIA .

2011-10-11T20:40:00.002+08:00

wa I'm like super duper happy, becauseeeeee, my birthday wish came true yesterday! on 10.10.11, which is like exactly one month late but woohooooo good things come for those who wait right? teeeheeee, so happy I got accepted bt USS entertainment, I am going to perform for the Outdoor Showwwww~ omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg HAPPY MAX ! :D

today I went for Basic5 locking techniques class wheeeee, only me and Jason though, haha taught by K-Lock! and then Fong came in also, waaaa like one to one class (Y)

my life is awesome now. ^-^

2011-10-10T12:14:00.003+08:00

today is another day that I feel thankful again [:

despite some hiccups there's something for me to be happy about again. :DDD I should seriously be more religious @@" ... sincerely hope no storm or hurricane or landslide occurs again..

new hang out.

2011-10-10T01:00:00.003+08:00

so many things have happened these few days... found a new place to chill, managed to play mahjong again~ had alot of supper here and there, attended classes at Studio Dance Meets, watched the Streetdance Handbook, auditioned for Natasha Studio's flashmob, lost my IC T_T ... But that made me pack my room and go to Ikea to buy a pretty box to pack my stuff.

sooooo many things, and almost every day dengyin comes over aww love her!

I've been like a movie maniac, watched so many movies in the past week .

Johnny English

Crazy Stupid Love

Dolphin Tale

Friends with Benefits

Abduction

krayzee or whaaaaatttt?

Haii.. I'm really too lazy to record everything down now, because it's like everytime I talk about something good, it will fade away, so I shall not be to specific for the time being, because life seems very smooth now (Y)

anddddd.. I'm also very happy now that dear U-lock is getting better!!!~ He managed to go out of the house 3 times already woohooooo~ awesome or whaaaat! :DDD I've greatly missed you locking partner~

new chapter!

2011-10-05T00:07:00.002+08:00

today I ended a chapter in my life. it wasn't all that easy, and the road's abit rocky... but isn't life all about new experiences, stumbling, falling, hurting yourself and even feeling discouraged, as long as you eventually get up and continue walking.

overworking.

2011-09-25T23:23:00.005+08:00

maybe tmrw I'll blog about previous events, kinda tired and got stuff to do, so quick update on the past week.

Been worrrrking alot alot serioulsy haha, now I'm like stuck to Jason! Seeing him almost every day 'cause now we're working together for Hotel Banquets otherwise we go locking :DDDD wooo loving it more and more every day! :D

The past two days were seriously HELL.

friday - skate at Northland Pri (yishun) - skate at Maha Bohdi (eunos) - go home for half an hour - go to PanPacific Hotel Atrium (bar&kitchen) to work (extra workforce needed for F1 crowd!) worked until 1am, waited for the transport to send us home which made me reach home around 2.30am x_x stupid drivers, kept smoking and slacking until 2pm before starting their rounds!

saturday - wake up at 7am to 11.30am, skate at Junyuan Pri (tampines) - went for lunch and met dengyin chilled at home until 5pm - work at PanPac again (even more hectic 'cause it was Qualifying Rounds) went home again around 2.30am.

The previous days were at Novotel! haha what a nice place that is, the colleagues are nice and the ballrooms are reaaally pretty too, of course not top-notch but good enough for me! :DD wa I never knew carrying a tray and just 3 glasses of drinks could be so heavy, I can't imagine the guys carrying a full tray @@"

waaa seriously damn you Jason, the bastard actually saw G.D & T.O.P walking through the PanPac Atrium AND DIDN'T TELL ME. D: haterzx you x999 ):

ANYWAY, some pictures from PanPac Kitchen! :D

CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT'S A CHEESECAKE?!

yummy muffin snack :p

HAHA chef Harry said Macdonalds tastes nicer. LOL.
Actually there's alot alot more yummier food but was soooo busy, couldn't take pictures D:
But whaddya expect, 5 star hotel !

Obstacles @ Junyuan!

steady steady..

Pass!

Fail!

"Cher, give harder ley!"

deng deng~

not bad, some can glide through all (Y) keep going students~ wooooop :D

birthdayweek

2011-09-19T01:34:00.000+08:00

I wanna blog about last week. but nobody uploaded any pictures for me to put in D: . . . so let's wait together.

stop along the way

2011-09-18T14:47:00.000+08:00

it's always said that the journey is more important than the destination. But I kinda wanna disagree. Sometimes the journey is horrible, tiring, arduous, makes your go in circles. Sometimes you give up, you cheat, you take short cuts. And when you finally reach the destination. You feel so relieved, so accomplished. And it makes you proud you made it. You earned the title.

then you realize the journey doesn't matter. Who has to know what you had to go through.. who really cares what you did. Even if you used underhanded means or nearly died along the way. People only remember the ending. All that matters is that you got there.

the tweet. ._.

2011-09-18T13:09:00.007+08:00

hi everybody!

in response on all the messages saying "WHAT HAPPENED?!" because of my tweet (the blue one)

Okay, short explanation to kill all your cats.

I was innocently at home, online on MSN, and youtube and twitter, minding my own business. I didn't turn on any music because it was 3am. And my dad suddenly swings open his room door violently and stomps up the stairs

He turns off the fan and lights (I bet he didn't notice the air con was on :p) and yells at me

AYESHA WHAT ARE YOU DOING, IT'S 3AM NOW, GO TO SLEEP.

YOU'RE TALKING SO LOUDLY ON THE PHONE EVERY NIGHT,

IT DISTURBS ME ALL TIME TIME.

STOP THIS RIGHT NOW.

and yay he grabs my phone on the table, my poor phone looked like it was gonna be ripped into two cause he just yanked if off the charger and stormed back down into his room.

Idk if I should laugh or cry, because I wasn't on the phone.. I was on MSN! and FB chat! -.- and ... even on nights when I'm on the phone, I close myself in my room or the glass room... So anyway after that I still stayed online...

You know what's so stupid about this .

why on earth must I sleep early? fine if you don't want me online, I can grab the lappy and continue in my room, are you gonna bang my door down then? or I'll just stay awake in my room doing whatever.. or I'll go out for supper. what are you gonna do.

and even though I seemingly get up at noon, just because I'm in my room doesn't mean I'm always sleeping -.- can't I stay inside in the morning? and one last thing, despite how late I sleep, I can still wake up at 5.30 am to go coach at faraway schools, so please just leave my body clock alone ._.

and .. I'm not the one who uses the computer the whole day from 7am or so until 2am or later every day okay, if your bills are high why blame me? Like you say, I'm never home anyway.

sighs.. parents are lame. ._. right worm?

(on a random note, this GroupOn Text Enhance thingy is annoying, how the heck do I remove it.. or am I the only person who sees certains words in green and double underlined.)

wasted my time.

2011-09-18T01:30:00.005+08:00

Idk if y'all can read it it says

Have you (ever) come to the stage where you are afraid to be close

or to get close to some one for the fear (to go through the phase)

that they may leave you like how those previous one(s) did?

I saw my friend post this and I thought about you immediately.. and plus seeing some people's tweets and your FB updates, suddenly made me very mad . I was in very good spirits the whole day actually, but I thought about you and I seriously wanna slap your face so hard.

But nevermind I'm gonna rant awhile, when I'm done, I shall resume my happy thoughts.

ANYWAY. it reminds me what a fucking asshole you are. and kinda pathetic as well. When we were still talking and kinda close in fact, and you whined about all your ex-es and how they treated you badly and stuff. It seems like you're just as bad to me, supposedly "rejecting" girls around you like you're some kinda god and everyone likes you. oh please.

Okay fine, I know you can be nice and all, like you were to me until you suddenly changed, like why the f did you become like this I have no effing idea and I've thought pretty long about it and I can only conclude you're an arrogant bastard.

But good for you, at least I know one person who will defend you upon reading this, but even that person will probably give up on you soon.

I hate you now because you lied to me. You promised me things you wouldn't do and you do it right in front of my face and smile like an idiot . fuck you seriously, I don't care how miserable your life was, I'm not gonna console you ever again. Because I did and you took it for granted and you just disappeared suddenly when I needed you around.

Remember that night infront of my house and you actually put your fucking arms around me and hugged me because I was so troubled and you said "you'll never leave me alone if I had problems, you never want us to fall apart even if you found a girlfriend or found a job and became busy" AND of course how can I forget you telling me "Don't fall in love with me okay? I wanna be best friends with you."

fuck you and your bullshit. _I_

Anyway I also am angry at you because you set so many goals for yourself and didn't even put in the effort and thus you failed at almost everything you told me you would do. job well dumb.

I'm not gonna waste anymore time and effort typing about you, you're just a super short chapter in my life that has pretty much taught me that I should trust my first impression. I didn't like you in the beginning, and congratulations I still don't like you.

yeah apparently now you're doing fine and you're happy with other people. Good luck to you, hope you don't screw up again, because unlike you I'm human and I have a heart and I genuinely hope that you can open your fucking eyes and realize who cares about you. But let me tell you now, I DON'T ANYMORE. Because to me you're a piece of shit, I trusted you. When everyone was mocking you I put all my belief in you that you could achieve your dream. TOO BAD. I'm just gonna sit and watch you struggle and see if you EVER accomplish what you wanted.

MDD Founders Reunion

2011-09-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

yo! today I went out with my founding-MDD friends (Muzical De Dans - I can't even remember what this means!) aww, from 5 years agooooo, okay but before that had a super funky session with Jack and Jason, seeeeeriously sweat a few buckets, my hair was like.. flinging sweat around. YUCK I know. LOL .

But anywayz, I felt damn happy today, somewhat accomplished from dancing.

kaey, then went to Bugis to meet Sunny, Mel, Jojo, Joseph and Kitat + GF, awww man miss them sooooo much~ we had a yummy steamboat where my inner dino was growling like mad .. now I bet its gonna be muted for about 12hours maybe :p

Had so much leftover food had to play zhong ji mi ma to make losers eat. LOL . and mel and sunny reenacted their crab scene from 5 years ago. WAAAA TIME FLIES! I really cannot believe how young and immature we ALL were. Damn fun talking about stupid incidents in game, in forums in real life and all the little scandals teeeheeee.

Alvin d3 swung by as we were about to leave the House of Steamboat and we went to jalan around Suntec and talked to an emo girl LOL . funny stuff. ahhhh [: feels good to grow up together!

and I kinda miss being called mir0kii, I think maybe I should keep that name, it's like a super old name with a story behind it [: and I used it for so long and it's still famous in Audi :xxx teeheee, Locker Miro ~

memory boost!

2011-09-15T12:16:00.005+08:00

wow so many things can happen in 12 days! :DDD im here to blog.. I need to borrow TonyTonyChopper's power ball thingy, and brain boost! memory boost! finger typing boost! x_x.

well, here goes,
we shall begin from We Lock Together on ... 3rd September! first time attending a dance battle event! and it was purely locking ~ sweeeeet. It was a very hiiiigh event 'cause all the classic locking songs were played, hehhh, the Emcee and Judges showcase was like superduper nice also, go youtube WLT okay! all the videos are awesome! So proud of all my friends who took part like Clarence & Janine, Ice & Jun Zhe and Chris & Daviest!

Ceekay said it's been a while since there were 2v2 battles, so this event was to bring it back :DDD haha oh yes and I remember the judges speeches were epic. HAHAHAHA

must watch videos.. but don't watch too much

practice basic look at mirror, freestyle don't look at mirror!

U-Lock when you recover we must tagteam and choreo together and take part battle if there's the chance okay! ~

The next day after WLT, I went to watch another show! A Jitterbug Kids Showcase, to watch my lil sister do HipHop in a Buzz Lightyear costume. CUTE TTM. :DDD But it was quite lame actually.. 'cause it was around 3hours of watching little things bounce here and there, like they're too small to catch the real steps.

Alot of tap dance and cartwheels and jumping and more jumping. :o .. BUT it looked like super high budget, 'cause all the costumes were super nice, the stage the lights and all, they even had a video film reel inbetween every 4 performances, haha idk how to explain, it was some olden day effect thingy ~

The next day.. I think it was the next day.. or night more like it, me went out with my mommie first who dumped alot of stuff on me like food presents .. which reminds me! Mooncake Fest is over and I didn't eat the mooncakes yet D: (greentea and choc flavour ! ❤ yum) okay anyway, yes after that went to NYP to look for Ceekay YY and K-Lock! they were session-ing and I was a bored nearby girl. Instead of session-ing, I was there playing with K-Lock's skateboard hahaha! So wobbly @@.

We all went for supper after that, with a new girl and Mianbao who came down from home haha. wasn't really supper.. was dessert time? LOL all nom-ing icecream ~ then listened to K-Lock and Mianbao rahrahrah for very long, and then they suddenly diverted away and to YY and Ceekay and it was just very fun listening to everyone talk about funny events, their past, their friends, their work and life. [:

It was damn funny 'cause like the mac staff even asked why weren't we going home. lol ! in the end we left around 2plus and K-Lock kindly sent every one home, awww I wonder what time he reached back. lolol. Serangoon Sengkang Tampines Sembawang and back to Balestier. (Y)

The next day again.. once again I think its the next day.. whatever I know the order of events so next day, me and TDY went to visit Eugene :D ~ we spammed potato chips at NTUC and in the end... we didn't eat a single one.. LOL ! But had a darn nice time just chilling with the two of them, watching TinTin and magic shows on telly. ^-^

Hope you recover ASAP U-Lock I NEED YOU PARTNER! D: tag team~ oh yes we also did the Poker Card reading thingy, haha oh the plot thickens.... LOL. It's so... cool how the cards can really tell you what's going on.

Okay.. my list says I went to session after that.. so I'm assuming its the night where I went to Scape with Din and I boxsplit failed and was in so much pain that I sat and watched LCL practicing and they started to bboy instead .. hahaha okay *flashback*

ANYWAY I remember now that last Thursday was a super dancey day, went to try the USS auditions, fail max -.- LOL . but it was damn fun, then went for Reggae Open for the first time with my Reggae Course peeps and then went for LCL session at night and tagged with Jason. LOLOLOL. Ceekay diao face was a sight to see. HAHAHA!

Okay, I'm going to stop here, because ... confirm very boring without photos, but I'm damn lazy to post any photos :x just go to facebook ! :DDD shall continue alot alot more things that happened when I get home tonight ^-^ ! (still gt.. bowling day, natasha studio surprise, birthday night, going malaysia etc! stay tuned! :p)

stomachflu

2011-09-03T12:37:00.002+08:00

can't drink a can of milo
can't finish a cup of bubbletea

can't finish a half a bowl of noodles
can't eat a quarter of fried rice
can't eat one-sixth of mifen

hungry but won't eat, tired but won't sleep.
body what's wrong with you?!

just when I thought it got better yesterday, the nausea is back again. damnyoutummy.

seeyouagain

2011-09-01T13:47:00.000+08:00

idol.

2011-09-01T01:33:00.004+08:00

[: I wish you knew how you make me feel.

2ne1 - ugly.

2011-08-31T01:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY

2011-08-29T22:21:00.005+08:00

I am sooo happy, like dizzy with happiness AHAHAHAHAH I bet everyone thinks I'm crazy HAHA

I AM SO HAPPY! :D:D:D
IM SO BRAVE ! :DDDDD

wormmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ❤ you are the only ONLY ONLY person who knows why and I really hope you can feel as happy as I am soon *prays for you*

Okay I'm in such a good mood, I shall skimpily (did I spell that right?) talk about my previous two days!

Saturday I was so dead tired, I went to see Suntec Dance awhile, then I was superrrr sleepy and only got to see a few groups D: and unexpected results hmm, can't watch Suntec Finals 'cause its on my birthdayyyy~ and I will be at Edwin's Chalet ~ and there's also wenyi's dance compy at Iluma and there's also some SG book of records thingy at Vivo ! AHHH I WANNA ATTEND EVERYTHING! D:

Been so long since I went to SuntecDance, I remember watching the entire thing in 2009 [: and saw The Basic 5s for the first time (I think!)

hmm.. after watching.. went to gaigai with U-lock, din and ranling.. then I got damn bored, went to the kallang rink to visit Daniel, Kelvin, Maggie, Weixiang and gang! hehehe the iceskaters are always soooo happy and friendly ❤

Met Serenaaaaaa again, officially haha, and HOMAIGAWD, Kelvin said he could give me a pair of Hockey Skates YAYYYYYYYY :DDD 'cause it's unwanted and unused. :DDD *smiles x 999*

But actually... Saturday was a very unlucky day for me D: .. but I'm so happy now, I don't really feel it now. I lost my birthday ring D: which pamela like sorta custom-made 'cause there's only like one piece per item where she got it )): and then on my way home I also didn't realize the bus services were diverted from several bus-stops in town so waited like an idiot for 45minutes and nearly died of rage but MRT-ed home anyway. THEN, when I got home, I saw a freakin' lizard. wtf in my shower. I HATE LIZARDS. DIE AND GO TO HELL. so I screamed and my maid rescued me by killing it, after that I didn't wanna continue my shower ):

On Sunday I stayed home the entire day like a good girl, seriously, just watched drama slept and blogged the previous post ^-^ rented "Due Date" to watch at night, hehhh funny show!

Today was a great day, because once again I was very brave [: at least I think I am :x and I had a kinda bad driving lesson in the pouring rain T_T and drafted my letter to sinyean andd... watched "Suckseed" woooo cute and funny show :DD anddddd... went shopping and break fast one last time with my folks. Good day ! ^-^

k I'm out! gotta scream on the phone with my wormie ❤

happy in SG .

2011-08-28T14:04:00.027+08:00

[: so many things to say today, staying at home the wholeee day ! rare or what :x

After a really long time, me and dan went out together on a mission! a secret mission we created a nong nong time ago at the beginning of 2010. Slowly trying to complete the entire campaign :x mini quests along the way. So we conquered the Bukit Timah Hill on Wednesday !

silly boy chickened out at the bus-stop when he saw so many monkeys and was afraid they were gonna pounce and attack him. lol. At the visitor centre saw a giant black lizard as well and he started considering turning back already! whaaat . LOL . In the end we did climb, all the way to the top without stopping anywhere ~ power !

On the way down however.. hai blame it on my dumb and impulsive self. He challenged me to taking a nature trail and I set off into the Dairy Farm Loop Trail to prove I'm not scared of the jungle(or forest) . homaigawd what a long and windy and slippery trail we went on @@ with no sense of direction or distance at all D: Made it out alive and super sweaty after one hour. After being frightened by the thought of getting lost in the woods I guaiguai took the proper road down X_x.

that done, we took a really long bus ride to town [: I had to go meet alexmon for dinner and he had lessons at Scape! Had awesome Texas Chicken with Alex :DDD and spent some time at the Doggy k9 Park and the Pet Safari. shooo cutezx ^-^ watched 4 poodles get groomed and fluffed up. The groomers dyed their feet pink. mad cute!

Hmm.. this is out of this post's timeline, this was last weeek or maybe the week before, where we went out together hehehe I can't even remember what occasion it was but there we are! Out with Yoongshin, kinda rare :o

who dropped the icecream that night? :x

NOT US :p

Then these photos are also .. randomly pulled out :o bubble blowing at Scape :p

wheeeeee the bubble wands can light up! :D U-Lock got them from being involved in NDP, haha poor thing, finally done with the F1 Pit area, YOG, Chingay and NDP all over! Congrats :p

and this was from last Friday, Glenn was DJ-ing his FlyEgg competition at Lasalle, I shall remember that day as a day I drank MilkTea at MOS, Chocolate Oreo from EachACup, Taiwan MilkTea at Geisha Coffee and more MilkTea from KOI !

Anyway, Glenn's plane was awesome [: landed perfectly at the X . and the other competitors had really cute designs too haha like exploding capsules, a Stingray and a Superhero :x

Back to my week, after climbing Bukit Timah, the next day was just as exciting :p went to the TinTin Shop for the first time at Chinatown, uuuwaaaa TINTIN❤

after that we jalan around Chinatown and went down to the Red Dot Design Musem

ohwell we didn't pay so only walked around the first floor ~

Then headed down to Scapey 'cause some of our session kaki were there already like Darren! :D

though he was just slacking around :p
here's Joyce dilligently trying her applejacks.

me tried and failed and fell back . D:

oh my :o

Had a lovely Reggae session that day, shaking booty on the floor, Reggae Battle next week! wahahahahahaha last session! Now my thighs are somewhat immune to Reggae classes, heehee, but it Reggae ends how D: later become floppy again.

After Reggae, sat in K-Lock's car to go to Lion City Lockers Session! (LCL)

vroooooooom ~ haha K it's actually the car beside this one :x
an 8-seater car! nice for all of us to plop in (ceekay, ken, ashley, me, eugene and jason)

Time to intro some of the Lockers, hehe the people that we meet at session and sometimes Chunky pulled them into class before :o

1. K-Lock (Kenneth)

damn good at applejacks and kneedrops and super clean!

2. YY (Yu Yao)

full of crap xD but super funky !

3. Ceekay (idk his real name!)

Ceekay is a good teacher ^-^ always somethings new each week and he has crazy twirls!

4. ChunkyFunkie (Ian)

the very first dancer I ever youtube-d back in 2006, super funny and has his own Spasm-Style, super nice teacher and super duper funky hahahaa!

5. Lil Kaycee (Suria)

at first I wondered if she was in any way related to Ceekay, but anyway she's like super small and about 1 year old in Locking but super zai already! :D

Happy Lockers :D

In my second week I decided I had to go out and Cypher, scary like siao but was fun :DD made me super happy the next few hours and the next day. :DDD ! Learnt the proper Boxsplit from Ceekay also and K-Lock accidentally kicked Chunky in the groin during Cypher. :xx
SPASM!~ HAHAHA

Friday, was a birthday treat from U-lock :D
a whole day spent at RWS + Sentosa + USS .

still in the locking mood from LCL the night before!

I carried a snake!

first time ever going to Underwater world + Dolphin Lagoon, can't believe I yelped and jumped away from the conveyor belt when I saw the 3D shark D: ..

Finally got to see PINK dolphins :D until Friday I never believed that such creatures existed !

I thought it was just a drink.. D:

South American Fur Seal getting a massage :D

it's a really well-trained and clever seal! :D

walked behind the UnderwaterWorld, and it was like.. jungle-ish, Bukit Timah again?! lol

We realized we were walking through the "Jungle Trail" beside UnderWater world hehe !

then went to the beach to jalan jalan and watch people play BeachVolleyball and UltimateFrisbeeee~

teehee I feel so silly looking at this now.

someone actually planked across the L and O of Siloso while we were there!

walked by WaveHouse for the first time too! :o wow ..

steady steady..

whoops!

After some thought I realized how special Singapore actually is. I can't think of another country that has a whole Island dedicated to such entertainment. There's like ... the Resort World and Universal Studios, hotels, restaurants, theatre performances, the beach, chalets, the clubs and pubs, the Luge, iFly, Megazip, the trapeez, underwater-world, nature trails, the merlion, the Fort and idk what else at Sentosa. Sudden Revelation. HAHA.

MARRY ME!
wow !
and I thought such things only existed in movies :p

So we waited for about 7pm before we could enter USS during afterhours.

Battlestar Galatica really looks like a star :o!

Bollywood in Hollywood?

Dinner at Mel's :D yumyum!

they have a working Jukebox! Retro or whattt ! :D

so many cool things inside USS :o

my future :x .

brother long legs.

2011-08-28T00:17:00.001+08:00

my brother says his legs are too long for this house. HAHA

2011-08-27T01:15:00.002+08:00

On Sunday, I shall update with pictures, many many pictures.. shall not be lazy kay? [: *digging my own grave*

boxsplit :D

2011-08-23T23:14:00.003+08:00

On Sunday, me went for Pamela's birthday partayyy chalettt escorted by papa Glenn to the NationalServiceSafraCountryClub. whatanawesome place. :DDD

made it there from Mac in 45mins but amazingly skated back from there to Parkway in 30. naise.

Anywayz the chalet was pretty and fully aircondition-ed and very big and spacious and I had alot alot of food likee...alot of rice alot of bread alot of curry alot of cake alot of pudding alot of chicken alot of fried nuggets alot of otah alot of satay alot of rice and everything nice :DD

became fat in an hour.

Then on Monday, had four mini heartattacks urbaning from Peirce Sec to Bishan.. couldn't take it anymore had to MRT home. x_x man I'm such a coward. zz. die cowardly ayesha DIE! come forth brave ayesha!

Today, I woke up.. half an hour late for driving lesson ): so instructor said not enough time to learn parking D: nevermind, but he booked my test for me in Oct! zomg! scary ._. but anywayz I was inching forward waiting to U-Turn and he pours out like 9sweets into my free hand and then the light turns green and I'm light wtf? stuff all the sweets and spin the wheel like crazy. and I totally dk how my legs controlled themsevles and miraculously turned smoothly 'cause I was choking on the sweets.

BUT anyway I can do boxsplit both ways now WHEEEEEE almost can do applejack too muahahahha me wants to learn chunky's suicide boxsplit combo + scoobywalk WHEEEEEEE

SCRABBLE TIME

2011-08-21T22:48:00.002+08:00

my favourite game.. so simple and so fun, I need to buy Jenga soon hmm :x

let me take you to rio rio~ SPH FRIENDS WE NEED TO MEET.

almost made sin yean hahah!

see my dad's lovely english. LOL.

made Eat to Feat to Defeat

my rope to Grope
my sane to Insane

tsk.

survival

2011-08-20T23:51:00.000+08:00

I survived a day without food for 24hours! waaaooowww.

very briefly.

2011-08-16T14:05:00.002+08:00

my week in short.

went to Malaysia last Monday, with no intentions at all, just to accompany the others. Came back with big muahchees, chips, donuts and tapioca! Joyce came back with pink and white highlights thus the new label of ahlian!

Tuesday was National Day, unbelievable that I stayed home like a good girl. went out with stepmom to buy alot more food at Jalan Sultan [: awesome! Did some shopping at Bugis too. After a yummy break fast at home, met Dan at SG river. screeeeeeeeeeeeeeam! Didn't see fireworks, nor did I watch the telecast, for once in my life, I didn't do anything national-day-ish. Just stoned my day away. The next time 9th of August comes, where will I be?
Happy birthday Chloe

Wednesday went by in a blur. had driving then went to watch Voyage de la Vie at Resort World Sentosa with Alexander, super niceeeeeeee. This is like half-truth. To the people who have never watched a circus before, yes it is amazing, everything, the composition, the lights, the actions, the costumes, the sounds, the surprises and the thrill. For me, after Moscow and Cirque du Soleil, I think this was just normal. But~ I really like circuses, so I still enjoyed it thoroughly ^-^ , (just fyi: Cirque do Soleil is seeeeriously the most spectacular display ever. It's even held in an outdoor tent, classic ! :DD and they sold the costumes after the show too! and if you like animals then Moscow's the real treat :p)

It was my first time in RWS aghh so pretty! Saw a crazy mob of fan girls and squeezed through them only to realize our seats were directly behind the B1A4 . Crazy lucky? LOL. Supper with the dancers after that :p!

Thursday started at Recognize! Studios where Jason let us into the studios to practice [: locked. Night was spent doing Reggae! and had fabulous fruit tarts!

Friday?
Coached at Zhonghua for 3hours went back for a nap and out for a movie (Horrible Bosses) hmm I think I've watched too many movies and I'm starting to not laugh so much at them anymore. D: I need a super empty head to watch them.. Supper with papa Glenn [:

Saturdayyyyyy ! IKEA!
If you know me long enough you'll know that furniture is my favourite type of shopping, love the smell of nice furniture and I love to imagine my future home and how everything would be a mess and super colourful because I want this I want that!

couldn't have meatballs because of fasting ): it rained after our little trip. hanged out around Tampines really walked everywhere, until it was time to go back to my 2nd home and learn more locking. Tzechar dinner with some of them and a lovely walk around town + Haagen Daz 7th Heaven~

Sunday was the long-awaited Skating day, woke up and got my wheels and headed to ECP with Jack and Glenn after a short detour. Awesome time, fell down the skateramp, felt awesome too. Awesome tzechar dinner with BBQ Stingray ! ! ! ! ! and icecreammm~ and skated back to PP to bus my way home to GossipGirl.

Monday, yesterday was a horrid day, it rained so my body lost all sense of timing and my brother says my body's just too tired (how is that possible when I wake up at noon every day?!) and so I woke up at 5.35pm. ohmyeffinggod.

my whole day gone! but I had nothing planned anyway. went out to daiso got some felt and thread. had yummy LJS, ahaha the Sawadeeeeee is the bomb. then hmm.. back to NEX with Daniel to rewatch Planet Apes. @@

TODAY I'M GOING TO POST A LETTER FINALLY. k bye! (no time edit text today! another day perhaps!)

2011-08-14T13:25:00.000+08:00

._. im so bad.

ihatebirthdays.

2011-08-13T23:38:00.004+08:00

It's actually been awhile since I went home feeling sick and moody and the entire train ride was just so unbearable I would have cabbed home if I had the cash on me. Sighhh the sad feeling of being poor

Today wasn't a bad day, in fact it was pretty nice. But some small things can just affect everything. Someone just had to turn up today, because someone else is so super attention-seeking and whines about being alone even for a minute. So this someone just asked me quietly to help with a favour, not that it's a difficult one, but it just got me so.. sad.

Sighs, I can imagine myself 3weeks and a half from now, amidst a room full of crowded people, in an expensive place, feeling completely lost, and most likely I'll leave in tears, just like I did at the same event last year.

I know it's stupid to make a big deal out of it, it's just another day, some people aren't even lucky to have it, but I guess I really can't not have any expectations. But it really sucks even more because this year it's different, there's no school no exam no fucking excuse. But I know, I just know it's not gonna be a happy experience. But then again, it never had been.

I wonder why I'm even wasting my time wasting my tears worrying about that stupid day, I wish it would never come. Next year I won't be here to go through this pain again, but then again it might just happen there again.

Only one person really matters, but that one person is bound to disappoint the most. Because you really are lazy and stubborn to learn or to even try and have low self-esteem in situations like this, you just stand there and let other people do things. And you're like oh I'm gonna do this, but it NEVER happens. never never never. I just hate it that you're like that.

you know whats the fucking best part about typing this blog post?

it's that you're just gonna text me later to stupidly ask "who are you scolding in your blog" and oh god, I'm not scolding, I wish I could, oh I really do wish I could face you and yell at you until my throat goes dry about how unhappy I am and how frustrated I am at you. But I can't! Because I'm fucking weak, and I can't blame you for being born like that. I can only pity you for being incapable of certain things that majority of the world can do.

moviesz

2011-08-07T01:22:00.002+08:00

I was so free one day, I think wednesday, so I decided to stop lazing around and do something, and so I went to write my movie tickets album, and wow the last time I wrote was 21st April 2010, good luck to me writing all day way until August 2011. ggfied.

yeah.. it took me probably two hours to gather all my ticket stubs, sort them by date and try to squeeze out whatever I liked or noticed most about the show, but well.. I can't really remember why or who I watched the shows with like I wrote for previous movies @@ . and I've lost many other ticket stubs, sad die me D:

So that night, I think it's wedensday, yes, my little sister's birthday :D (sorry too lazy to get my cam here, tomorrow morning perhaps.) so yes we went to Swensens, good food (Y) ! Daddy actually planned a surprise but my maid and sis went to buy stuff and came home later than the rest so the surprise .. fail D: but wow my dad actually hid a bicycle for 2weeks and I didn't know ! my brother didn't know ! my sister didn't know ! my stepmum didn't know ! but.. as people always say.. the maids know everything. Or like in WSS, the servants, the slaves start all the rumours. waaa.

met Glenn after that to watch Transformers yet again.. but goody, 'cause the third time, I made sure to keep the tickets ! [: hmm well noticed more things again, so yeah wasn't that bad, I thought I would sleep but I didn't and uuuuuuu-lock scared the daylights out of me when he texted "im behind you" and I was like "glenn glenn! turn around and see who's behind!" LOL or what.

On thursday.. had driving lesson, learnt to U-Turn hmm sad that it was raining, lesson ended half an hour later, so from 12pm, I had to chiong to Naval Base Sec (at Khatib) by 12.15, zomg impossible! So naturally I was late ._. plus I mafan-ed myself by bringing slippers and shorts so the rain wouldn't soak my pants or shoes, then changed into shoes in the car, changed back to slippers to chiong, reached Naval Base changed to jeans and shoes and then to skates. ._.

and swinging plastic bags with wet slippers and wet umbrella too :o

Okay, so Alexander took over my class but oh joy of joys my team cheered when I reached hahaha so cute :x I just wish they would try harder and stop complaining leg pain back pain very hot very tired very difficult ._. aiyoyoyo stress 'cause mine's the slowest team, maybe King gonna fire me soon D:

After that chiong home with all my wet shoes and etc, and back to Scape for Reggae 2 ! DY was at camp so was just me... O_O.. then suddenly Ash and Bernadette came in late, but yay company~ was alittle sad looking at the Recital Successful Auditionees board... and the entire class's mood was like lowwwww, 'cause I think all the Reggae I and II peeps didn't make it through. ): xuehui howwww! Help us!

left with daniel.. Came home with sore legs D: gahh.

met J at nex for TEXAS! was starving by then after a day's of fasting and teaching and reggaeing zomg. miracle I was alive! went back home, wheeeeee lappy finally with me after 1week plus D: !! no wonder I've been sleeping earlier :x hmm anyway then.. so watched the long-awaited "Butterfly Effect" which J has been bugging me nonnnnnnstop to download and watch together and its like ..

"I want to watch Butterfly Effect!"
"I still haven't watch Butterfly Effect!"
"Eh, your Butterfly Effect download finish already?"
"Faster download I want to watch!"
"wa sian I need to watch Butterfly Effect!"

crazy girl.

what a freaky show. made me unable to sleep until 3am when my folks woke up to nomnom, after that I was still like.. imagining stuff and heart racing until I .. became too tired I guess. :o !

the next morning! Rise and Shine so early to go to Northland Pri! shooo many new bright blueeee skates ~ changing their wheels were like @@" finger exercise!

Then to MahaBohdi, so sleepy.. so hungry so thirsty, had to lay out the guards nicely for the spoilt kids who don't even know how to put on a helmet, my god and it's supposed to be a good school? Like ._. northland kids are so much smarter please, except this naught student called Faith who refused to stand at all and kept pushing me from behind! D:

then to boonlay where I really almost died of thirst... boonlay sec students learn way too fast D: lucky last lesson next Friday! I feel so sad that I'm learning at such a slow pace, I need lessons myself! glenn ah glenn time to skate again!

went to scape by 174, thirsty until tou yun.. reached scape, met U-lock and died awhile until could finally get Gongcha, finished that in ayeee's record time ! D: had a yummy-looking-not-so-yummy-in-fact dinner then went to play Kinect with U-lock ! Yes I beat him in Bowling, but he won in lefthand bowling + beach volleyball + boxing. homaigawd, I suck or what D:

Bryan Sky Daniel and Nicky took very long to finish breaking and they we all went for 2nd dinner LOL. :x growing fat growing fat~ but but.. it was fishball noodles, cannot resist D: ! went back home, and Nicky's like feeling bored so we watched "Rise of the Planet of the Apes" at nex as a last minute thing, haha bought 6cans of lemongreentea and gummies and sat happily :D wa it's quite a freaky show but like... cool? and scary? I can't even put in words how I feel, abit amazed, abit disturbed, abit sad about the future of science and... ouh I guess you should all watch it [:

Since I was so bloated from two dinners.. I woke up dazed on Saturday morning at 3am, still freaked out by both the movies I recently watched and ate two hotdogs and went back to sleep.. lol ggfied.

I woke up still okay.. but by midday I was like weak weak like about to snap into two.. so met U-lock (again :D! so rare that he's out from camp wahahahaha) and I was running like an idiot for the bus because I misplaced my earphones and was searching wildly for them and almosttt missed the bus he was on. Today's destination - ICA! I can't remember what that stands for... but I was already feeling so weak on the bus there.. waited here and there.. queued and stared at queue numbers and like after 2hours or more.. U-lock had his Emergency Pass to Malaysia valid for 90days to "visit his sick Grandpa" a.k.a go msia slack, eat food, shop, print tees and dye hair. LOL.

way to go!~

Hmm.. zoomed down to Natasha Studio to meet Ashley and attend my first ever Locking lesson by YuYao who shall in future be referred to as YY ! I actually mistook YY and Larry.. because.. they like.. same height same size D: only hair different! D: face also like the same to me :x im going blind .. I think. Lesson was very fun :D pace and twirl for 5minutes each haha DRILL ! the choreo was damn cute too :D shake your boooooty~

I got a call in the day from a mysterious Edwin hahaa whom I heard as Alvin and I was like.. I dont know you! LOL. but haii.. it's such a strange call I dont know how to feel after it ended. Well I said yes. I'm going to attend Edwin's birthday bash .. which falls on my birthday . wow. what a weird feeling @@" I remember how awful I felt last year.. leaving his party in tears.. not again not again x_x .

Then.. went to Scape, met nut and her shufflers and then played more Kinect Adventure and KO-ed on the couch until break fast time, had a yummeh dinner with u-lock jazzyin yoongshin and daniel, chilled abit at Istana Park and went homeeeeeeeeee.

Actually it wasn't purely because I was tired, but it's like I've been alittle confused lately, and plus I was with one seemingly happy single guy, one confused-about-guys girl, one slightly heartbroken guy, one totally whacko guy lost in his own world, and me neither here nor there. So I was just.. observing I guess and trying to sort my heart out ._. sighsz...

I'm so glad I'm done. Bye!

gg.com/ayesha

2011-08-03T17:11:00.006+08:00

Fasting Day 3!

lika tough only... today woke up at 6am to go to BukitTimahPri ! YESSS wasn't late at all! saw the truck pulling in while walking in hahaha, today Jason the Chimp wasn't that annoying either, infact he really made me laugh alot today [:

hahaha Euray was dying though... LOL at 10am already KO-ed ... haiyoyo howhow? lousy guy still hasn't gotten up to shower even NOW. how many hours already tsktsk! @@ actually I'm also half-dead now, the most awesome boss Kingsley dropped me back at home and I slept until ... 2pm and forced myself to nex to collect my sister's custom-made Strawberry Shortcake Cake which is like.. $97.60 pamper much?

D: she's just 5 and she got her own ipod ): I feel sad for myself. lol .

Kaey then it was drizzling haiyo.. went to her school to cut cake and give out all the party packs for her friends and the little monsters ate up every last bit ): no nicey cake for me T_T. Ohwell.. daddy says he'll get an ice cream cake for us later ^-^ SO HUNGRY, but so boring ley.. always going to Swensens for birthdays, but of course I'm a creature of habit too I always choose Seoul :x but I likeeeeee steamboat, ahhh steamboat...

so hungry so hungry T_T ..

and it's like waaaaa... tomorrow is going to put me to the real test.. Driving lesson at 10am Coaching at Naval Base at 12.15pm (can I even rush there so fast?!) Reggae 2 at 7.30pm (can I go back home to sleep awhile? I think not ._.)

see what Joyce had to say about my plight. ._. '''

STOP YOUR PEE ! wow words of wisdom J. thanks.

Alex Xunz says (PM 5:12)

ayesha.gg.fyl.failblog.com.sg

Besides that... there's something else I can GG about... no $$ !
for...

sister's birthday (3)
chloe's birthday (9)
mum's birthday (11)
eeling's birthday (11)
irene's birthday (18)
dad's birthday (20)
pamela's birthday (22)

-.-
I hate all of you.

kaey... just one more hour to dai at home... omg time passes so.. slowly.

Oh yes, I didn't manage to cook yesterday despite getting all my recipes ready D: 'cause I was too slow! My maid already cooked stuff like ...
black pepper beef
sambal prawns
potato curry
deep-fried nuggets + springrolls
fried vegetables

aiyo I'm making myself hungry @@ . but but I'm so happeh because of people like U-lock who said he woke up to fast too (Y) goodjob!! Endure with me :D Oh yes so what I did yesterday was actually to organize my movie tixs album from April 2010 until the most recent Captain America! wawa sticky fingers @@ but so nice looking back at all the movies I've watched with who and on what occasions ^-^ wheeeeeee~

today is 2/8 .

2011-08-02T16:14:00.005+08:00

Today is another day where I have absolutely nothing to do.. so after another mini htht with Glenn [: (glenn you the best k!) I slept until.. 2.38pm, I'm not thaaat tired but seriously, my bed suddenly became so comfortable last night, I'm wide awake but I just wanna lie there.

so I made up my mind, today I will cook! [: (yes I will cook for you, the only way I am willing to pamper. LOL.)

I printed out 33 Recipes today. yay me :D lolol . mad or what.
Okay I hope I can cook properly without tasting the food first x_x .

today is august the 2nd. wheeee... though I've prepared nothing ): but nevermind, after being shaken by some words I guess it's expected that I've done nothing.

to my dear awesome food mon:
fellow awesome misses the previous you. but fellow awesome knows what you're feeling right now ^-^ overwhelmed with emotions on a one-tracked mind and somewhat oblivious to everyone and everything except her. I had that too, and I lost out on many things because of that, but of course I also gained alot of things, choose wisely [:

try again.

2011-08-01T23:40:00.006+08:00

[Shane:]

Hush now don't you cry

There will be a better day

I promise you

We can work it out

But only if you let me know

What's on your mind

[Mark:]

Baby, you thought it was forever

Through any kind of weather

[Shane:]

But some day you will find what you're searching for

[All:]

Try again

Never stop believing

Try again

Don't give up on your love

Stumble and fall

Is the heart of it all

When you fall down (down)

Just try again

[Bryan:]

Smile now, let it go

Hey, you will never be alone

I promise you

If you can't fight the feeling (Oh yeah)

Surrender in your heart

Remember love will set you free

[Shane:]

Baby, you thought it was forever

You would always be together

But someday you will find what you're searching for

[All:]

Try again

Never stop believing

Try again

Don't give up on your love

Stumble and fall

Is the heart of it all

When you fall down (down)

Just try again

[Shane:]

Baby, when a heart is crying

Its sometimes feels like dying

The tear drops fall like rain

Baby, you thought it was forever

You would always be together

But someday you will find what you're searching for

[All:]

Try again (ooh yeah)

Never stop believing (oh no)

Try again

Don't give up on your love

([Mark:] Dont' give up on your love baby)

Try again

([Mark:] just try again)

Never stop believing

Try again

Don't give up on your love

Stumble and fall

Is the heart of it all

[Shane:]

When you fall down

Just try again

I know many people out there have stumbled and fell many times, and maybe like me you just can't bring yourself to continue, but I guess we all need some time off, but we must always stand up again.

significance.

2011-08-01T23:30:00.003+08:00

maybe you look at me and you think I'm always happy and I always have many people around me. But don't ever think you're insignificant because it just takes time for things to happen, and even though you and the others think I have a short attention span, it doesn't mean you're not important to me, it's that I happen to take you for granted sometimes, because I want to think that you'll always be there even if I ignore you for awhile.

and there are times where you only know that I'm just dying inside but all smiles outside, and you should know you're most significant then. I don't know what to do, what to say to make you feel better, I only know how much better I would feel knowing you're feeling better as well.

Sorry for being selfish.

parcel.

2011-08-01T22:47:00.005+08:00

Some overdue photos from my motobaby [:

don't you love the feeling of receiving a parcel? Funny that the day i received this big package, I sent out one myself .

though I have no photo of the parcel, only the letter [:

and yammy dear says something shall arrive for me too aww ! :D

ahh.. fasting month has begun and the first day is already over, had a headache since midday til now.. haiyo ._. somehow didn't feel that hungry throughout the day. but now I do looking at this..
the day I added more than usual chilli with U-lock ~

my lovely friend dengyin ❤

still praying for that miracle, hai.. ._.

had icecream @ upper thomson with Sandra and Izhardi, yummy earl grey, big scoop for $2.50 :D

Sandra the vespa lover, izhardi the truck driver. lol

This is TeddyWeddy, recently told Glenn about his existence and wow Glenn knows about Teddy too ~ the pissed but cute bear :o

So that day after DY came over, we went skating at Punggol Park~

she survived without falling at all [: yayyyyyyy and I didn't fall either thank god~ was fun 'cause the weather was nice and the grounds were pretty easy, wahahah first time mini urban for DY

green palms from gripping the side rails :x

we returned back for a shower and out again, looking like..

cute I know. :D

had a hard time calling up people to book tickets for Captain America -.- but nevermind the movie was nice (to me at least) me like superheroes ❤ hmm ...

had supper too and the rest (joyce alex tanna weihao bryan and junhong) went for DOTA sessions

while me and dy headed home to sleep and woke up 4hours later to head to Scape to practice before Recital Auditions.

it was fun and scary waiting outside watching group after group 'flash mob' :x ah well, only Agnes and Zhi An passed the auditions. So funny that things like HipHop had about 200 people while Bboy only 11 ! wa big difference, me screwed up Reggae so badly 'cause was super super nervous, but locking was ulti fun [: sad only 10people were selected at the end.

Played Guesstures and Truth session for over 3hours with the dancers . haha so many things dug out but I can't even remember anything now.

About today's fasting, I guess I was very tired from previous days, so slept almost the entire day except when I had to go to driving lesson, hai... I shall use up my free time to chiong driving now. ._.

goodnight and goodbye.

sith beats :D

2011-07-30T14:05:00.007+08:00

Its been 4 days! Not that I've been lazy, it's that I really have no time and I already sleep too little for my own good so so so... now's a good time to updatey ~

I must mention again that I cut my hair on Monday, becuz I love it so I have to say it again! and yes nom-ed Katong Laksa that day as well with U-lock G3ne$, haha okay thats just eugene :x but t'was yummy nom-ing it after a long long time and by god he can tahan more chilli than me? Impossible! D:

Anyway from first week of Reggae 2 plus nonstop going out skate and dance here and there, my legs were still jelly jelly so hardly did much, even second week of Reggae killed me again. T_T so after cutting my lovely hair, I was just slacking around .

went shopping with Glenn for his preeeeecious Samsung Galaxy SII Zenus casing . silly obsessed man. I got myself 2 pairs of supa long colourful stripy sockz to use for skating ~ else I be runnin' outta sockz.

Told glenn mah story of mah favourite omelette rice that was removed from FoodJunction ): sadddd max. (kaey I believe my typing iz abit diff, 'cause I'm listening to Reggae music and itz so bouncy xD makes me wanna type diff-ly todayyyyyyyyyyyye)

After that..... i remember meeting DY and... idk what next.. @@ .

THEN...
wednesday, without dear glenn I was 47minutes late in reaching Bukit Timah Preschool and was punished by Kingsley to take over the next p1 class @@ lucky they were quite guai but haiyo ): me no good enough at voice projection (!!!) sighz. like so malu T_T a bad first time.

Kaey nevermind at least I got dropped back somewhere in Hougang ! and went home snoooooze for 4 hours? then lugged two big bags of artscraftsy things and saw many other people practicing for Suntec Dance and for the Auditions. arghhhhhh.
(me in alot alot of pain right now, so hard to type @@ .. back hurts arms hurt .. sigh. growing old.)

rewatched Micmacs with Glenn at night [: damn awesome show! :D

Thursday I was early for Naval Base! :D made it there myself again, so helpful of Euray to tell me to exit on the side with the grass field when both sides of Khatib have a grass field! ._. ! had to take my own class again ): sian got bullied by the Sec 2's D: they just don't try hard enough! ): Rescue came in the form of Ernest

Team red, you guys are actually very lucky to have the nicest coach

who doesnt shout at you. But can you see you're the slowest class?

If the head coach sees that you're not listening to your coach

then he'll put the fiercest coach here. So you better listen up

and don't give your coach a hard time.

sia la... fierce! and then the kids were like. " 'cher! That one your boyfriend ah? " ._. best.

Things actually got better after that [: yipeeee ~ decided no more urban to Sembawang that day @@ so went for icecream with Izhardi and Sandra, yumyum earl grey icecream at Upper Thomson, and they came over to my place for awhile 'cause Iz wanted to nomnom :x in the end didn't nomnom but just slacked at home and Sandra borrowed a tee and a pen and went to teach her tuition.

"eh teacher, why you never bring bag today?" LOL max.

Had my 3rd Reggae class that night, wa sudden burst of energy, after many days of lazing and slacking around at Scape, whoaaaaaa practiced sexy look and epic-failed. Agnes Dinnie Dengyin Daniel and Joyce II had an awesome time laughing at me -.-

Friday?
killer day.
after sleeping about 4 hours on Thurs night, woke up to go to Northland Preschool (Yishun) to teach from 9.30 to 11.30 .

next to Maha Bohdi School (Eunos) at 12.20, I know the name's abit weird, it's actually a Buddhist school, super high class yo.

and then got carsick on a van to Hillview Warehouse (Bukit Timah) to load up some skates and guards and into another car to BoonLay Secondary School (Boon Lay duh!) by 3.30pm and taught until 5plus.

Thanks to Glenn, I had 3 rounds of ICU classes at all three schools, yay me. -____- hai.. was drenched in sweat but the last 10minutes in wheels while the students were packing up their guards and keeping back the skates, I managed to do heeltoe snake omgomgomg :x (just youtube if you dk what I'm talking about and you really really wanna know and can be bothered to search lol)

YAY !

and tried abit of T-brake turn too, hahah happeh me.

Skated back to JP and MRT-ed to town, yammy yelled in caps to me to say he received the parcel in Melbourne ! :DDDD me even happier than max now! :DDD

reached Scape and died for one hour.. met Russel and Sky, chilled abit and drank 3 cups of water while doing nothing... then started my Reggae and HipHop and Locking until 11pm... then really died again.. met Alex at Dhoby, so me him and Nicky went home tgt by the long way [: teehee been so long since we did that !~

Then died.. on my bed again.

ha.. woke up from two consecutive nightmares, both involving Dengyin and monsters. haiyo. brain don't spoil please.

Right nowww.. dy is coming over! :DDD and ... goodbye!!~ and and oh yes, please listen to this "Sith Beats Remix" so awesome for all you peepul who love StarWars, wait for the 1minute part zomg!

tumblr.

2011-07-26T01:44:00.003+08:00

Since you cry so easily, and I cry easily too, I hope you will when you see this, because I did. It made me think of the past and the super scary future, and you know. ): actually idk, I hope this makes you smile too, the first you see when you get back home and go online and enter this site [:

and alot alot alot more lovely stuff here

princess

2011-07-25T23:42:00.003+08:00

Today is a happy day. why?

'cause I went to do my hair, and I feel and I feel like I look like a princess :D just missing a tiara! :p and also... hmm.. didn't dance much today :o just chilled and went home with Nicky after sucha long time :D

dengyin!

2011-07-24T22:56:00.004+08:00

HIGHLIGHTS of the past few days! (omg I'm getting lazy again ._.)

watched HarryPotter with my lovely friends arranged like this..

eugene dinnie dengyin me daniel yoongshin in the front row
because dengyin and I can't be separated, daniel and yoongshin can't be parted either, dengyin wanted to share daniel's popcorn, while daniel wanted to have me + shin and I wanted yoongshin's lemon tea. LOL .

weihao junhong agnes bryan nicky behind because they went in first and Agnes didnt want someone tall blocking her so me infront of her :D

I love harrypotter with all my heart and I'm like extremely depressed that its over now ): nothing much to look forward to on the bigscreens anymore. like even transformers seems to have ended? and I MUST mention that dengyin cried at the pensieve part. :x I'm so bad but SHE CRIED! :DDD LOL :x im so bad but heeheeeee dy so cuteeeezxzx ahh.

Although there's always POTC [: yay! and Smurfs and Cars 2 and Chipmunks 3 zomg :ppp and there's TinTin movie and there's Johnny English 2 and there's The Three Musketeers. OOOOH okay I take back what I say, but yaknow .. not the same anymore without the HP gang! D:

been playing even more Xbox Kinect, today played Scrabble too :D:D zomg gt bigger words siah! like..
angel
roman
sticks
jetlag
writes
quest

hahaha SO FUN ! I love Scrabble! :D reminds me it's been damn long since I went to a boardgame cafe too D: Poor Eugene struggling to play along I remember seeing his "hand" which had I Z I I C I A O. HAHAHAHAHA! sadboi91. :x

Hmm.. also met dengyin's OG people the day before at Kallang rink, saw lijie kelvin akira and the others wheeee, but we chilled at Starbucks then went to play bowling wheeeeeeeeeee.

I.LOVE.BOWLING.

I'm not even good at it, but bowling is so fun! ARGH I wanna go fly kites and picnic and Marina too D: okkaye... Chmel is freaking cute the way she bowls lol, looks like a pixie to me, then there's the pro Hanrong and the dude who tied with me Chris, ah all nice peepul, looks like my worm is in good hands at NUS. T_T.

wormie idk if I should be happy for you or not ):
I am, but I'm also not.
lol don't hate me kaey.

DY and I had an ultimately long chat session from Kallang to town and shopping for prezzie and chilling and wisma and .. like.. it seemed like we spent alot alot of hours talking laughing and going to the toilet many times (okay that was just me :x) it was so simple but enjoyable [: ❤dy!
(Sidenote to DY and to self: it's effing funny now when I look at the people we "played" the game with during our Tea session LOLOL !)

Hmm.. today ley?

couldn't drag myself up to meet Glenn ): so just met Eugene and we went watch-shopping. AHHHHHHHHH I NEED A NEW WATCH TOO! no $$ !!! met DY and today I actually did sweat alot from doing the audition choreos, recapping Master class and Open class routines and doing some freestyling [: yay! EUGENE! I AM GOING TO BUY A PRETTEH WATCH TOOO D: ! zaihar stylezx. I hope ._.

Then went for CheeHooi's birthday celebration at Timbre! Finally found where Substation is, whatta ulu place :o

dinner was actually pretty good, met Sarah, chee's cuzzin who is like totally her doppelganger. They're really so alike! :o ! cool stuff, sadly the place was alittle too warm and stuffy and she had had some alcohol so passed out twice. @@ BUT OTHER THAN THAT, it was nice seeing them all again [: the RV peeps.

I'm actually darn glad I'm outta RV. I know there were fun times, but overall was never a good school experience. most unfortunately.

I really really want uni life to be the best 4 years of my life, then I can die regret-free.

selfishness.

2011-07-23T23:48:00.002+08:00

one day you'll look in the mirror and realize that you have been an asshole
one day when you feel all alone you'll understand how you've made others feel
one day when you're suddenly bitching about others, you'll realize that you were just like that before.
one day you'll wonder what went wrong, and you'll regret not noticing your mistakes earlier.

maybe.
you already know.

stupid.

canteen

2011-07-21T23:16:00.001+08:00

after going to many schools to teach... I suddenly find RiverValley's canteen veryvery appealing [:

guess we all didn't know how blessed we were!

grounded?

2011-07-20T00:04:00.000+08:00

0 wish I wasn't so lazy, but too bad I am. or maybe I just procrastinate too much.. nah it's both. kaey nevermind, I'm gonna skip all the nice details and go straight to the main stuff that happened .. :D

attended Korean Music Wave 2011 last friday night ! :DDD was suppperrrrr HIGH 'cause I love Kpop and it's my first ever concert,waaaaa damn happeyyy to see BIGBANG and 2NE1 and FT island and U-Kiss! :DDD if only f(x) and B2ST came! would be perrrfect! :D

BUT I REALLY SCREAMED AND SCREAMED AND SCREAMED :x

The next day I was grounded... but heck, still went out for a hotpot dinner with alex joyce weihao and bryan! then the guys came plus joyce and dengyin all came over for a sleepover! :DDD played twister, watched movie, chilled, truth and daredd... zomg :x but sadly daddy was in a pissy mood and they all took the first trains homeeee~

had to wash alot of soft toys and pack my entire room again @@

Joyce stayed with me though, and we went to Glenn's house in the day time to help prep for his 26th BBQ :D was damn fun, ran in the rain, nearly broke glenn's bed, littered his house with gold confetti and went down to blast music and BBQ the night away ^-^ so much for being grounded :x

Monday ... I still wasn't kept at home :x in fact... I even left the island! Had a super good piano lesson and rushed to the checkpoint and off to Malaysia with Tanna, a different Eugene and Joyce.

I swear it was the most last minute outing ever, got a message from Joyce the night before to bring my passport out ! O_O !

The trip was much better than the previous one 'cause NO QUEUE at the customs! and we managed to make all our shirts and collect within 2 hours! Lookie lookie! :D expression tees and custom-made ones and Mr.Men :D

Eugene and I also came up with our very own Street Names woohooo~

He has the Locking Genes, born to lock! and I actually thought of Funkkaye but .. that would mean I only danced to funk music which would be .. locking only? D: but NO! I can do hiphop and reggae tooooo xD and abit of others here and there bleah! so GrOovEy it is with a crown ! (which you shall see later!)

haha lucky the shop doesn't care about ~~copyrights~~!

this is my 'farewell' gift to yammy, alittle too late? AIRMAIL!

So within those 2 hours of shirt-printing, of course Tanna had his hellokitty and joyce's alex's tees were made tooo.. so Tanna did NEON PINK highlights!

After so much activity... I thought I'd be tired and be a good girl and stay home... So since I'm home.. the fun will come to me! :x And fun came in the form of dengyin! who came over and we learnt the Reggae audition routine together~ and we had our own karaoke session with me playing the piano and she struggling to sing along LOL. funny stuff.

Eventually we did leave home :x to our second home! to session more :D and I mysteriously left at 8... to meet Alexander the Great! haha or more like Alex Doink, who so kindly customized a Carls Junior burger for me... our very own homemade dinner :D

triple patty plus 8slices of cheeeeeze? zomg! FAT DIE!

alotta cheeeeze but don't like like 8slices leyyyy :x

so after a super super heavy dinner ... we went to watch Transformers 3 ! :DDD wa i was much more awake this time and I realized I did fall asleep the first time 'cause I was darn tired from TBG. soooo was good :D then cabbed back... for NIGHTCYLCING!

omg now that I'm writing about my days I really feel like a Duracell Bunny @@ doing so much in a day! though I fail to mention I wake up at.. 1pm daily :p

kaey.. so we cycled around, had icecream and we even entered a house that was being renovated! :DD wowee nice glass house! I can just sit in a furniture shop and imagine my home next time [: this house was darn pretty, lucky residents!

Took a photo from the roof balcony :D can you spot my house? :p

Today morning, yes.. super lazy to go out, really had every intention of staying home.. but .. D: sorry I just can't be kept in one place! After getting really annoyed at blogger HTML editting I gave up .. but you all should try the dynamic view blog thingy, super cool ! :D

played alot alot alot of the Xbox Kinect Dance game with dengyin and dinnie and flora and even Jack :D also learnt half of the HipHop audition routine with YoongShin. had dinner etc :D dance dance more, until we were all very tired @@ woop I broke a high score! and DY unlocked new songs too wahahahahah so addictive!

tried out Artease bubble tea! :D not bad at all ~

then went to Pontian to doodle :x

a disturbing apple capsicum thingy

aye.m.GrOovEy ! :D

Jazzyin !

Jack SUCKS! LOL zomg who wrote that?!

yoong shin's lolli O_O.

part of the family :p

yay I'm done I'm done :D:D:D and guess what... I have so many things lined up tomorrow and friday and saturday and sunday and monday... haha totally not gonna allow myself to be grounded :x. lalala.

LAST TUESDAY NIGHT

2011-07-18T23:07:00.000+08:00

last tuesday night... began here.

down a brightly lit corridor in Tower One of Marina Bay Sands.

enter to the room sponsored by..

I can't really explain the madness that went on inside here it was
just pure fun [:

wearing a dress Agnes lent me for dinner time. lol.

Once again, started with only dinnie junhong me and agnes, then slowly came daniel.. bryan weihao joyce eugene vince and etc...

CANDID CAMERA!

POSED!

aww I love this happy picture! :D

someone dressed for someone not to see? :o

where's your monster joyce?

ah, this is Vince! Dinnie's new boyfee :D

the fake camwhore.

tackling each other !!

*thwack!*

innocent looking agnes with a dangerous slipper!

and this is me after getting bullied... reduced to literally head banging!

and more nonsense...

I THINK this was a posed shot! :o act busy act busy!

*flip!*

boingggg~

Okay this is when we realised it was getting alittle late and time to
go to the Sky Garden!

throwing socks?!

weihao sad 'cause only 4 people could go up to the skygarden D:

so Dinnie Vince Eugene and Junhong went, and the rest of us when back to slack again :pp

waiting for our last member that night, Tanna to come from
work @ MBS mall !

they stole my hat again! D:

and of course the hat looks best on its owner [:

THE BIG GROOVE 2011

2011-07-17T23:26:00.000+08:00

it all started with a wrongly received SMS, thank you so much my dear
motobaby for translating my text for me :D

after lotsa trouble in calling texting msning fbmessaging and all sorts of means of communication, Eugene finally managed to book 19 tickets for TBG! wow or what! Kudos!

me and dinnie and eugene met up first wooop~
dinnie was superduper sunburnt that day :o like toast !

met Stacey who was there to book seats for us! aww good girl, she flew back from Aussie for a month just to catch TBG! wahahahaha I guess that'll be me next time! :DD

met Shalom who came with agnes and we sat in the queue for a few hours together.... wawa big big event of the year!
MUSTTTT queue for good seats. heeheee.
yupp.. so as expected, and as seen from recent FB trends, we loveeeeeee to take pictures! So that's exactly what we did to pass the time! :D
(daniel shawn alex joyce tanna hilary josephine and many more peeps came much later!
D: so no fun in the queue for them!)

HAHA eugene was actually exploding inside but forced a smile out!

I love hats!

everyone loves my hat!

This is evil Eugene, bragging to me that he has 2010's WCO tee D: nooooooo
nevermind I have two 2011 WCO tees to make up for it!

FREE F&N FOR ALL!

❤ GroovyGrape & IceCreamSoda!!~

here's angry bird shawn! :DDD

Kayyy so we finally entered after queueing from 3.30pm until about 7pm! PHEW!
Teeees being sold inside, utter madness, the blueee WCO tee was snatched within minutes, hahahaha lucky me! It pays to queue up early and "waste" your day in a queue :x !
and there were free balloons tooo~

MORE PICTURES WITH OTHER FRIENDS AT THE VENUE!

imran!❤ chingay friend

so egggcited about the show!

omgomg the camera has started roooooollllling!~

HELLOOO SHEIK!

LET THE SHOW BEGIN!

BASE!

MADOKA! (I think)

LAST MINUTE STREET CREW!

RADIKAL FORZE!

ZOO THAILAND!

WCO!

INTERMISSION!

LOL. k was feeling super damn damn HIGHHHHH at the concert, screaming like nonstop!
MORE PICTURES!

with K-Lock woooooooop!

Janine event photographer sehhh! wooop!

Amander ❤ from reggae!

WE THE BLUE WCO TEE GANG!

eugene armchio siah! :x

Dhika :D from MJ!

im amazed I don't look fat in this picture, it's taken from the bottom! homg!

kay.. some of these pics I don't even recall taking!
must've been tooooooo HIGHHH!

BACK TO SHOW

BIG TOE CREW!

BEAT FREAKS!

aaaaaaaaand ... OCREW!

awesome dope superb FANTABAHUBALICIOUS SHOW!

chunky in all reds ❤ rofl cute instructor! :DDD

and the krayzee few of us queued for exclusive photos with..

BEAT FREAKS!

BIG TOE CREW!

O CREW!

WCO + BEAT BUDDY BOI!

autograph from HANAI! our masterclass instructor!

souvenirs!

everyone else left! whereas me and eugene went to town to catch Transformers 3 ! [:
awesomemess night ever!

incominggggggggg

2011-07-17T23:11:00.006+08:00

INCOMING....

like alot alot updates! shall make this post fly to top ! SERIOUS BLOGGING STARTS NOW! 11.11pm on 17/7/11.

film. tv. media production.

2011-07-16T16:13:00.001+08:00

you'd be willing to follow me there? [:
wow.

two.

2011-07-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

two fabulous nights.

one night with the happy family in MBS.

one night with SPH peeps @ KOREAN MUSIC WAVE 2011 breathing the same air as Miss A, 2NE1, FT Island anddddddddddddddddddddd BIGBANG!!

the happy struggle.

2011-07-13T19:35:00.001+08:00

it's been so long since I came home in the evening. so long since I saw the sun set by the main door and hear my sister's laughter when coming home from school. so long since I saw the silly cartoons she watches every day, so long since I had a home-cooked dinner. [:

the past two days have been unimaginably fun. [:

but for now, I'd just like to sit at home and smile to myself.

regret.

2011-07-10T14:18:00.002+08:00

these days, whenever I see myself in the mirror, I feel like throwing a rock and shattering that horrible image. I don't even know how to explain all the things around me, I don't know what I've become. I hate everything around me, don't wanna talk to anyone at all.

I'm just a selfish, self-obsessed, self-centred person.

I can't believe how many people I've managed to annoy, to anger, to upset in such a short time. So many promises broken so many vows unkept so many responsibilities thrown aside.

Today is a very important day.
someone I like alot is leaving Singapore. and I couldn't manage to get him what I wanted.
it's Asia's biggest hiphop festival and I don't feel like going.

I just regret so many many things I have done.
I can't believe what a hypocrite I've been.

I don't know how to start again, so rebuild everything. Like a coward I wish I could just run away and forget everything. I'm just too scared to go out and look everyone again. I'm truly despicable. I want to just hide away at home but even then, home is not a sanctuary.

I look at my life and see a whole chain of regrets. If only if only I was eight again, when my life was absolutely perfect, since nine it's been a downward spiral .

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2011-07-09T22:26:00.003+08:00

Dearest Google and Blogger,

Could you please disable auto pagination, or at least make it optional.
we hope to hear from you soon.

sincerely,
the entire blogspot world.

plea.

2011-07-09T16:49:00.001+08:00

god help him. please.
I don't wanna see him sad for so long.

wow.

2011-07-09T02:09:00.001+08:00

wow .. really.

didn't know you were that expressive... haha [:
way to go monster!

dreams.

2011-07-07T23:55:00.002+08:00

today was a stoney day... cried my way from home to marsiling after a phonecall. today I suddenly realized that the reason why people get so upset is because they have dreams in life... because things keep happening that creates hurdles and makes the road bend way off couse and its so frustrating and tiring to keep heading towards your dream.

so on my way I was thinking about other people whether they had a purpose in their life, or at least something small they want to achieve, short term goals.

so I stared at school students..
one was lugging a big popular bag which was full of files and foolscap.
a bunch were giggling away and exiting the station at Bishan.
a middle-aged woman staring at the clock in the station.
a stick-thin girl dressed shabbily but carrying a branded bag.

it just set the gears in my head turning -- what is world up to?

anyway it turns out I couldn't bring myself to speak of my sadness so I was awfully quiet and I think JH was running out of ideas to make me talk D: so sorry. I attempted to laugh it off by looking at funny tumblr blogs ... haha. fleeting happiness.

Met eugene and dengyin at OC for dinner only to stupidly be enlightened that TBG masterclasses have replaced the open classes, so byebye to dancing my sorrows away. Instead.. played wii at Best Denki ._. apparently I'm very unbalanced. lol.

had a quiet journey home, and sorry again for spreading my depression to you. It's just after avoiding the truth for so long, I've almost reached a dead end and I really have to face it now.

hey you.
let's prove to them that guys and girls can be the best of friends, without falling for each other [:

letter.

2011-07-07T14:10:00.001+08:00

still think about you, still care about you, still wonder if I made the right descision.

2011-07-07T04:58:00.003+08:00

gossip girl season 1 episode 9.
( ps: totally unrelated to the previous few posts but yeah [: )

2011-07-07T03:51:00.002+08:00

haha you just made me smile like.. [[[[[[[:

T_T

2011-07-07T02:28:00.000+08:00

I hope you smile for me when you wake up .

being rude

2011-07-07T01:24:00.001+08:00

im sorry ):

friday friday gotta get down !

2011-07-06T15:19:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY!

6 hours of skating waaa @@ mixed up zhonghua secondary and zhonghua primary, as did Glenn, but I was still early for class! wahahaha taught p2 students, freakin' cute !
met new people leonard teo leonard lim grace victor edah

mm its so scary that even the p2 kids can point middle fingers at each other D: thus the new invention of the thousand fingers fuck you hand signal by glenn ! chionged to Sembawang Secondary.. the poor leonards and other guys had to sit in the back of the truck. zomg! smelly max LOL.

wow secondary school kids are sooo much easier to teach and handle! Dengyin came along and wow she picks up awfully fast and has no fear at all for falling down. kudos! meanwhile was trying to gather the happy family to meet up for pancakes that night and arrange for movie, tsktsk sucked my phone battery dry when lessons ended @@ .

tried to do transition, with Leonard Lim trying to bang into me, Euray trying to trip me, Leonard Teo and Grace demo-ing the transition with such ease.... D: sadgurl92.

... after all that I my legs were like jelly jelly and went to change out to go for dinner, little did I know how translucent the tank top I chose was ._. gosh ! Lugged my bag and polaroid and skates to town, how unfortunate for us that the train broke down , hahaha.

we were allll late! and we had to wait about 45minutes for a table for 11 at strictly pancakes. too much business !

everyone else was super high and energetic but I was feeling super exhausted so like... didn't wanna talk much.. hai felt so lost among so many people. I really felt like just getting up and going home, but gahhh.. I planned this. -___- things picked up for me midway, started taking lotsa random pics and tried to make myself active.

tried new flavours like the Salmon Run and Beef Me Up!

of course can't do without the classic DRUGGIE

weihao took up the challenge of swallowing a few mouthfuls of pancake + chocolate syrup + maple syrup + milk + garlic sauce + garlice and herb butter

euw? LOL he said it tasted gooood.

took many group pics yay! outing success! ~ and there were many funnny positions like..

tanna struggling to take it upside down!

junhong throwing pillows to interrupt!

polaroid moment [:

After pancakes we strolled to eat beancurd and drink coooold soya woooo and after that chilled at SOTA steps and took many lovely silhouette photos wooopwoop!

the night was goooood~ [: kinda sad some members were missing like Jack Dinnie and Bryan but oh well good turn out ! when it was time to leave, haha met Connie and Tanna at the bus-stop then met Glenn again! and took the same bus home [:

SATURDAY!

another round of skating today! but on ice instead, felt damnnnnnnnnn weird after so many days being on land. ._. wheels are so heavy D: ! yupp anyway it was pretty fun 'cause there were people like dengyin and alex and nico and jack who couldn't skate well, though i'm not that good myself haha but it's good to help them move along [: .. had to lug alot of things to the rink like his big present and the polarpolar.

but it was all worth it, I had an awesome time on the rink, though it's not my birthday but daniel's 21st! It was great. So happy that so many people turned up, although didn't RSVP on the fb event page.. hmmm tsktsk. okay hahha but im truly grateful to all the people who showed up and also helped me write on the giant board ^-^

what all guys do for the girls [:

the lovely people ❤

Did silly stuff like speeding around holding hands, dragging daniel on the ice, spraying and kicking ice, cake cutting and dropping the cake onto the ice while the zamboni was resurfacing and cakesmear etc.

[: good to treasure these young moments haha!

Had a simple dinner at PastaMania afterward and chitchat until we were all soooo tired and went home.

of course everytime I return home, I magically regain all my energy and go online and watch gossipgirl and facebook and tweet and chat on the phone and everything. Night also happens to be the time where many people start thinking and reflecting which ultimately leads to emo-ing, so I had to juggle with a few emo people that night, ahhh ):
cheer up all my dear friends! ❤

So glenn zoomed over to my place and we had lovely supper together and took a stroll to woodleigh park and basically just talked and talked about our lives, until about 4am? Then headed back to my place to chill awhile more and finally cabbed back home at 5am. The next morning...

SUNDAY!

wow the fun just doesn't seem to end these days eh.. it was museum day!

waddup people!

the day began with expensive $6.50 chicken rice and $7 char kway teow.

truth be told, this innocent little intention of admiring artworks turned into a big deal with people kicking up a fuss about attendance.. hmmm, shall not elaborate further, it was nice company anyway. took glam-er pics finally and yeapp generally relaxing.

we went to three exhibits : VanGogh Alive! Shipwrecked and Dali.

aww no photography allowed in vangogh's exhibit

a ghostly image from the shipwreck.

Had a break after shipwrecked and had a $4 miniature coke D:

Next up ! Dail the genius!

failed group shot... tsk never ask strangers to take pictues!

Dali's signature moustache!

Took more silly photos today ^-^

Dali loves lobsters! it's like a sex symbol to him

this was my favourite piece.

made me go...

even his sketches are so awesome!

wai me so fail at drawing ):

At the top level was the 'Artscience' section where we just saw some designs of the museum and slideshows of famous inventors [:

we shared marbleslab icecream before the trio left for ECP for their own businesses while I skipped away to Taka Best Denki to visit JH [: simple but fun. fooled around, had dinner, he accompanied me home and talked until past midnight until I dropped him off and KO-ed .

It's just the best feeling ever, talking about ourselves, laughing at each other, until you slowly fall asleep. hmmm [:

take a bow.

2011-07-06T00:09:00.003+08:00

j: we're on the way already, where are you now?

d: in your heart ❤

congratulations on fooling me all this while. I should trusted my own heart rather than listen to you insist on the opposite. well, lesson learnt, hope you had your fun.

sadly.. I only realize now that you weren't worth all those tears.

bad dad

2011-07-04T03:55:00.005+08:00

do you know what time it is? I couldn't get a restful sleep with so many things on my mind.. and the biggest being you. I just don't get why you're constantly upset with me.

you told me you hated working at SPH, yet you're being such a hypocrite by telling me it's a great place to work for the next few months. you watched with your own eyes how much overtime work I had to do, stuck in the office like a slave until I fell ill for 9days. 9 whole days. yet you still insist so much that I return to that tiring lowpaying job.

I seriously don't get why you dislike the media industry so much, come on you're in advertising for god's sake. I was just signing up to be an event helper and you couldn't accept it. Neither do you approve of me being in F&B, nor will you let me work for you. nothing pleases you.

then now I have this coaching job which I really enjoy and get to learn stuff out of it, you get all pissy and think its useless. then why did you even put in on wheels and push me off the fucking steep hill outside our house and make me crash and laugh at me saying thats how I'll learn.

are you ever, ever going to support me? In my studies? In my dance? In my piano? In skating?

never.
rhetorical question, sorry I even asked.

you simply don't have space for me in your cold cold heart.

you know I just wonder why am I the odd one out? you had absolutely no objections with Imran's capoeira. you're willing to pay hefty fees for Alisha who is barely 5 years old to learn to ice-skate and to go to jitterbug studio, learn to play tennis, swim, music lessons and tuition at her young age where she should be just enjoying herself. Is this what sex really can do? just need someone sucking up to you and pleasing you and you'll just give in just like that.

do you even love her? it's just lust isn't it.

how different is alisha from me? I don't ask for a single cent from you, I worked my myself crazy to pay for dance courses. I just wanted to practice and perform for you, make you proud. yet there you were, halfhearted, thinking it was all just a waste of time.

on that note? how is it fair that you completely revamp my halfsister's room, give her a brand new desktop and scold me for bringing a borrowed lappy into my room. why do you keep scolding me from borrowing the internet cables? who uses it at midnight? it's back in place in the morning. why? why are you being like this? what have I dont wrong? I don't get this biasedness. just because her mother is prettier and younger, she suddenly becomes the super privilleged child.

I honestly don't care how you waste all your bloodsweat money on them with unncessary things like that mountain of toys sitting in the dining room and strewn around the house, or bringing her to concerts she probably wouldn't remember after awhile. I would really appreciate if you could give me some space and just stop criticizing my every move.

hai... what puzzles me even more is that you bought the skates 6months ago. 6 fucking months and they were nicely wrapped in plastic sealed in a box. I'm actually doing you a favour by utilizing them and making sure the wheels don't disintegrate like before. explain to me why that bitch has sudden need of them after 6 fucking months of leaving them in the store and only requesting for them when I lent them out for 1 fucking day.

fuck it, I can be petty too you know? I didn't touch them until about 3 weeks ago, so all pairs were nicely kept in the store, when I wanted to take mine they weren't sealed up like the rest were. so this means it's perfectly okay for others to meddle with my things, expect me not to kick up a big fuss yet you guys erupt like volcanoes when I just borrow something.

Is this what you fucking call family?

I love each of you individually. I have done so much for this dumb family.. and you know it. I've cried endlessly over our broken state, why the fuck did you marry her when we were against it. why the fuck are you so blind and you can't see how she's just using you. with the three of you together, I just hate this family.

and I will never ever make this same mistake. I will show you the meaning of family. I'll make you cry, I'll make you get down on your knees and apologize for all the shit you put me through for so many years. just you wait and see.

duet.

2011-07-03T23:55:00.000+08:00

I usually don't enjoy playing the piano because it's always exam pieces I'm playing.

This time I felt unusually happy [:
I enjoyed playing for you, sorry for making soooo many mistakes :p
I truly hope our duet will be perfect one day.

and thank you for the compliments.

sometimes when you've had a rough day, you feel so tired of life, and someone compliments you, it can be really comforting. It's just what I needed.
I'm sure you'd understand how I feel.

it's such a cold cruel merciless world out there, I'm seriously afraid of what's going to happen next. But you make things better. [: I hope you continue to stick around despite whatever misunderstandings there may have been in the past.

let's just try to be happy.

breakup.

2011-07-03T23:33:00.000+08:00

sorry it had to be done so cruelly on that day.

sometimes.

2011-07-02T00:08:00.000+08:00

sometimes I tell myself, to pluck up the courage to try something, sometimes I force myself to do things I don't like, sometimes I try to do things im not used to...

sometimes I try too hard.

sometimes it all amounts to nothing.

sometimes that demoralizes me, and makes me become ignorant all over again.. the the times will come that I have to try again.

collectionz.

2011-07-01T00:25:00.006+08:00

phew typing with a mini headache now. @@ shoo shoo go away ! ahh kaey today I did many things! wheeee [: haha ouh my life is pretty awesome nowadays . However I also discovered that I lost something precious to me ):

Left my black jacket at Scapey last night T_T ... haiyo, previously when I lost the brown and white one I was crying like a fountain and mommie was like

silly girl! I'll buy you another one! Tell me which one you like.

congrats I've done it again, ): maybe town is a cursed place, lose the first one at PlazaSing, another at Scape nooooo. haii both my favourite and super comfy jackets T_T ... damn damn damn damn damn .

OK nevermind, looking at Donald comforts me :x .. so cute. HAHA though I'm not a big fan of Donald. sorry random :o

I was taking photos out of my phone, hahaha saw this! Riding on a pony after my 3-night-performance, waiting for the spa appointment, haha why did I grow up so fast? x_x

One day when I'm rich, I wanna build a huge playground for adults. [: with lotsa swings and bungees and slides, everyone is entitled to their fun!

Morning, 6am awake, made it through the heavy rain to Bukit Timah Pri again, for like a half hour lesson 'cause the kids had temperature-taking exercise, haha aww I kinda miss school, but anywayz I saw the truck today! wowzee the amount of things stuffed inside !

this is like one fifth of the equipment? coooooooool right!

Afterrrrr skating, made my way to JunHong's place to pass the silly boy his MC which he happily left with me ._. lawl max. had tasteless and super salty fried rice. LOL. and saw his lighter collection. wahwah I really like going to people's homes. I wanna have a real nice and comfy home in the future. I love walking into furniture shops and making mental notes of what I want [: Home is sucha great place, and it's really amazing for me to enter flats and condos and see how people live, being in this big house can get so lonely and boring after awhile... everyone's far apart, the house is empty and cold.. sighz.

One of my dreams in life is to just have a nice and tight family, unlike..

but anyway, LIGHTERS! fascinating collection, and again this is just a few of his .

like a mini flamethrower!

gold bar siahz! sweeeet.

WA THIS IS A GIANT LIGHTER, I MUST TAKE THE PHOTO WITH ME TO COMPARE!

huge right! mother of all lighters haha!

this is JH's favourite, green flame wooooot!

wahahaha and a gift for me ~

Ain't that interesting? First time I've heard of a lighter collection! and me.. I collect all sorts of things. likeeeee..
- movie ticket stubs
- Snapple bottle caps
- clothes labels
- hats
- exotic coins
- 10cent + 5cent coins
- bookmarks
- stickers
- postcards

Kaey thats damn alot of junk in my room.

After a strange lunch, went home for a napppp, had the fuckyeah! moment when the bus jerked and I wokeup right at my stop woohooo~ napped for couple of hours and off to Scapey again for my final Reggae I class!

couldn't get my jacket back ): but okay nevermind, ayesha must learn to be more careful with her things! argh!

Had a damn fun last session 'cause XueHui made us form up in teams and do our own formations and choreograph 2 eights and add to our choreography, waaa nervous but damn fun HAHAHA my group was complimented on being united! yayyy ^^

this is too good! had to have it! and who better to have it with than awesome alex [: zoomed back home for supperrrr, sadly there's no more Earl Grey base flavour T_T... nooooo... next time we will have it! WE MUST.

went to the 24hours curry house for prataaa, monster had like 1egg 1cheese 1plain and a plate of maggie goreng as well. HAHA and mini blackhole had meegorengthai and alittle of the maggie goreng, so damn yummy. mmmm!

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HAHAHAHA the weekend is hereee it's gonna a SUPER DUPER FUN-PACKED WEEKENDDDDDDDDDDDDDD just ya'll wait and see! muahahahahahha life's good.

virgin coaching

2011-06-30T00:50:00.002+08:00

its a miracle im still awake and quite energetic !

today was a great day for me, actually a really relaxing day but little bits of fun here and there, was rewatching GossipGirl Season 1 and skyping until about 4am then I told myself I had to sleep despite how awake I was ... D: so woke up 2hours later at 6am, extremely groggy but dragged myself to the bus stop where daddy glenn's daddy came to pick me up and brought us to Bukit Batok.

sat outside Joycey's house, trying to guess her reaction with Glenn, we both failed.... D:

anywayz coaching was pretty easy, just some really naughty kids who roll away themselves, met a new friend Euray, who I cannot decipher whether he's local, what race, and... idk he looks like a combination of many things. Facebook says he's from Italy! but his surname is Tan. O_O?

Some of the kids are better than me ! malu max @@ but thank god glenn took the intermediate students and wowzee glenn's an awesome teacher hahaha *inspiration* mmm packing back the skates and guards are like @@ so hot and heavy and soaked in sweat D: glenn even said that the stench is considered good zomg joyce, let's prepare to die. HAHA

but this seems like a fun job wheeeeee im gonna learn to skate nicely muahahahahaha and accomplish my dream of skating from home to serangoon central buying a cone icecream and skating back home.

hmmm after that had the wonderfulicious A1 porridge waaaa :DDD and met quote glenn "wow sexy" JunHong on the train, lol ~ everyone's slowly getting to know glenn . yay! travelled all the way back home for a shower !

Then... it was about 3pm and I decided against napping so went to NEX to watch "Mr. Popper's Penguins" with JH ! ^^ Don't you just love Jim Carrey? The storyline is actually kinda nice and touching, [[: a seriously good watch! Then met Eugene and successfully pranked Joyce with our combined power :x

Locking open class with ashley, eugene, joyce, daniel, juncheng and jenine was tiring for some reason, halfway through I just felt so drained, but okay after watching two seniors students freestyle + choreo I feel super inspired ^-^ time to trainnnnnnnn and bring out my flava wootwoot!~

Kay well done to me for managing to blog a few days consistently :DDD !